Menu

Show posts

This section allows you to view all posts made by this member. Note that you can only see posts made in areas you currently have access to.

Show posts Menu

Messages - LittleBird

#1
Sexual Abuse / SA *trigger*
January 13, 2018, 03:39:45 PM
I don't know when, if ever, I'll see what happened to me as "not my fault".


When I've heard what other victims of child SA have shared, my heart breaks. But when I think back - I'm not at the stage yet where I don't believe it was my responsibility.
#3
Suicide Ideation/Self Harm / Re: SI
January 09, 2018, 11:54:25 PM
Thanks for the advice  :)
#4
Suicide Ideation/Self Harm / SI
January 08, 2018, 01:41:24 PM
Has anyone got advice on what to do * old SI marks? I'm really upset about them. I think I need to use an oil treatment but I struggle with this kind of self care every day.
#5
AV - Avoidance / Medication
January 06, 2018, 05:38:39 PM
When using medication for a dissociation issue, has anyone else found the increase in mood swings particularly difficult to manage? Because it is rubbish to up and up dosages when the risks are high. I guess it's like gambling. Or being used to gamble. Or something.
#6
I'm constantly fighting myself and recovery is never going to work. I don't have any options or abilities and I'm just a horrible person at the core. I thought I would be nicer if I felt well. That's not true. There is nothing I actually want to decide on. I hate myself.
#7
AV - Avoidance / Re: Shock
January 03, 2018, 03:50:02 AM
Sometimes I don't think I'll ever be able to do anything again.
#8
Recovery Journals / Re: Calming down
January 03, 2018, 03:42:21 AM
I don't think I deserve the good things I already have. I think I've looked for bad things and missed the good stuff and now it's way too late to take it back.
#9
 :hug: thanks sanmagic7, this helps
#10
Thanks for sharing  :)
#11
 :hug: sorry to hear you are taking a break (I've enjoyed your humour!) but you have fair enough reasons. I hope you feel a bit better soon and can rejoin, after some time refocusing.
#12
I am, as the title suggests, getting worn out flipping between these two states. I feel like I've made some progress and know the direction I'm headed. It's just tiring me out so much because the path isn't clear yet.

I don't know who I can trust or who I can ask for advice in person. I'd really appreciate some advice.
#13
Dr, your post filled me with hope too. I believe I know enough and I'm content with that (in this moment). It's a difficult balancing act.
#14
AV - Avoidance / Shock
December 31, 2017, 02:57:29 AM
I feel like I'm in epic amounts of shock right now. I'm terrified of myself. I can barely feel my face and I'm so shaken. I don't get it. Just don't get it. My eyes hurt and my forehead hurts. Can't sleep. Urgh.
#15
Questions/Suggestions/Comments / Survival tips
December 30, 2017, 08:09:46 PM
I thought it would be cool to have a board of mostly positive lists and recommendations. Maybe that wouldn't work here but I liked the thought  :)