Thank you for sharing this, Deb.
A poetic reminder of my own heart, as well.
A poetic reminder of my own heart, as well.
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Show posts MenuQuote from: BlancaLap on August 29, 2017, 10:57:44 PMThank you, kindly!
Hello! Nice to meet you! I hope you find what you came here for!
Quote from: Three Roses on August 29, 2017, 06:34:48 AMWow... thank you so much for sharing this, Three Roses. I honestly started crying whilst reading the stuff on that first link - in a good way! Just gave me an overwhelming feeling of actually being understood, that I'm not actually going crazy. I think I definitely fit into the Flight and Freeze types. I was suffering hard when I was unemployed, every day was a battle in trying to figure out how to keep myself distracted. Every time I feel my mood slipping, my thoughts going places it shouldn't, I have to find something to keep me busy - anything at all, gaming, drawing, watching TV, just SOMETHING.
Pete Walker is a regularly referenced therapist and author, and talks on his website about "the 4Fs" - fight flight freeze and fawn. Here is a brief description of them (from http://pete-walker.com/fourFs_TraumaTypologyComplexPTSD.htm):QuoteHabituated 4F defenses offer protection against further re-abandonment hurts by precluding the type of vulnerable relating that is prone to re-invoke childhood feelings of being attacked, unseen, and unappreciated. Fight types avoid real intimacy by unconsciously alienating others with their angry and controlling demands for the unmet childhood need of unconditional love; flight types stay perpetually busy and industrious to avoid potentially triggering interactions; freeze types hide away in their rooms and reveries; and fawn types avoid emotional investment and potential disappointment by barely showing themselves - by hiding behind their helpful personas, over-listening, over-eliciting or overdoing for the other - by giving service but never risking real self-exposure and the possibility of deeper level rejection.
These are survival/coping skills that have run amok, living on past the circumstances that caused us to have them. Most of us who've talked about it say they can see themselves in one or more of the types, some even identify with all four. The combinations are as individual as each of us.
We seem to be thrust into these roles by our Emotional Flashbacks, which are best combated by the practice of mindfulness. Here is a link to more info about flashback management - http://pete-walker.com/flashbackManagement.htm
That's a lot of info so I'll stop there. Hope it's helpful.
Quote from: fullofsoundandfury on August 02, 2017, 07:04:04 AMPretty much this ^ 100%. And cooking is such a scary thought for me, so many things could go wrong... eehhh... >.>
It is almost 5pm here now, and I haven't eaten. I am not deliberately, consciously doing it to keep slim or anything like that. That is the problem, I'm not consciously doing it. It's automatic. I can't remember to eat. I don't feel hunger. I'm not interested in food. I don't enjoy food. I hate having to cook and clean up after it. I might be restricting food to stay slim, I don't know! Could be anything.
Quote from: Three Roses on August 28, 2017, 04:05:35 PMI'm glad.
It's brilliant, makes me chuckle every time I see it as I hear it in my head.
Quote from: woodsgnome on August 28, 2017, 04:17:18 PMHi AphoticAtrementousHey Woodsgnome, thank you for the welcome and the kind words.
It's always good to see someone else who reaches down and somehow finds their own voice. I noticed this statement of yours: "I've had people tell me that I'm too young to have experienced trauma". Really? For me, and I'm sure I'm not unique here, I experienced trauma before I had words for it, but my little heart still knew it was yucky and scary.
Regarding your endnote of 'nervous laughter' I loved your explanation of it, where you said: "...it represents a kind of carefree attitude I aspire to, where I'm laughing instead of having a mental breakdown." Yes, yes, and yes; and remember, laughter and tears ride very close in our emotional anatomies; flip sides of the same coin.
Hope you can find the encouragement here that you are lacking elsewhere. And that you'll always be able to access that inner humourist.
Quote from: Candid on August 28, 2017, 12:05:44 PMThank you, Candid. ^-^ I'm really hoping I'll fit in.
A daily blessing to me, too, AphoticAtramentous. My career was as an editor of newspapers and magazines, which is a Job That Could Drive You Mad. What I've learned here is how NOT to keep cleaning up my own posts.
You're going to fit right in here. What took you so long?
Quote from: Three Roses on August 28, 2017, 01:00:09 PMHehe, I'm glad! It's not inspiring or any sort of helpful advice like a bunch of other members have as their signature, but for me I mean - it represents a kind of carefree attitude I aspire to, where I'm laughing instead of having a mental breakdown. lol
Welcome! I love your signature. (nervous laughter)