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Just had a heads up from my girlfriend.

Apparently I regularly become unresponsive as though I don't see the world around me. I am unaware of my surroundings and don't hear her when she talks to me.

She showed me a video of myself, I look to be in deep thought with rapid blinking and some change to facial expression but a fixed gaze looking into space.

These episodes can last 30 minutes or more, I don't respond when spoken to and just stare into space.

Then I just snap out of it and carry on normally with no memory of the episode.

Only found out about this today but I've been like it as long as she has known me apparently.

Bit shocking as it is something new to worry about, apparently the episodes are lasting longer recently.

Sounds a bit like petit mal to me, anyone had this? Might not be cptsd related at all.

I read peoples posts on here often.
The first few weeks I found it quite distressing at times, then I began to realise just how many decent people have had such dreadful experiences.
I felt bad for you all, then I felt bad for myself too, now I feel bad for all of us.
Now I'm also feeling cross about it.
Life isn't fair but I want it to be, I really resent the way good people get so badly hurt by others.
Whatever country you live in will have a justice system to punish wrongdoing.
I feel we have been punished by an injustice system which hurts people who have done nothing wrong at all, makes me angry.
But I'm often angry I guess

Having a few troubles and wanted to write them down, probably not relevant to anyone else, feel free to ignore.

Feeling rough due to new meds, pulled what I am pretty sure was a tiny piece of my jaw out of my mouth yesterday, had a molar extracted due to abscess a month ago and it doesn't seem to be healing well, think the meds are to blame as a side effect is infection. The tooth came out in one piece but I think the jaw might have been damaged in the process.

Had a chap act belligerently toward me and a few other people yesterday, he was just being an idiot but it triggered me into feeling violent, I left but part of me wanted to escalate the situation and nullify the threat. Everyone else just dismissed him but I couldn't ignore the potential threat and it upset me.

Its not good that people think they can act like that, people like me don't want trouble, I am afraid if I can't leave I could badly over react and cause serious harm.

Came under verbal attack from girlfriend today, mostly over my forgetfulness and lack of concentration, made me feel really sad that I'm a bit rubbish at keeping things together. Also felt hurt because I do try. Also felt sorry for her, her requirements aren't unreasonable but not easy for me to meet. She knows my issues but wants me to be different to the way my issues have made me.

Some days I just find everything a bit too much.

I feel quite sorry for myself today.

Hard to focus on the needs of others when you feel bad about yourself, the meds are making you feel Ill and there is a small but sharp piece of jaw bone cutting the side of your tongue that you can't dislodge.....

I try not to do self pity but some days its hard to be strong. I am not very resilient, a few setbacks and I'm a wreck.

Hi
I've been on this med for 3 weeks and the side effects are quite an issue for me.
Anyone had positive results? I could do with hearing about them right now as it is getting me down.

Cheers

This is not good.
Off to the airport in a few hours to get a psychiatric assessment.
By the time I get there I will have had no sleep for 36+ hours.
This is hopeless. This appointment is really important to my future and I'm going to be in a coma by the time I get there. My preparation for this appointment has been to get less and less sleep each night for the last week or so thinking about it. At least I haven't slept long enough for nightmares this last few days.
I just sabotage myself. What a buffoon.
Late onset stupidity is the likely assessment. Smoking so much my chest rattles like a cocktail shaker.....

Hello all
Joined today and wanted to try to bring something to the table.
Co morbidity is having more than one issue, it is common if you have trauma based anxiety. But what if you don't have any diagnosis at all and can't get treatment? Where are you then?

I have more issues than cptsd, now I know that fact things make a little more sense to me.
I try to be accepting of how I am, I was unaware I was Ill for many years, then very worried about my mental health for a while and no proper diagnosis.

Now I have a slight grasp of what is going on for me and I try to relax into it. Knowledge may not be power but it is still useful to have.

Don't worry about fitting the DSM criteria exactly, it is evolving over time as medicine catches up with the various ways trauma effects people. It reminds me of the scene in the Life of Brian where the popular front of Judea and the judean popular front are falling out over nothing.....

What I'm saying is, if you find your way here then you are in the right place.