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Oddly enough after a session , it can take me up to three hours to regain my self enough to drive , my therapist office is a hour away . My record thus far has been 4 hours to make that one hour drive back, yesterday was odd. My appointment is for ten am   Her office is in a busy mall. But down a quiet corridor,  I got there right on time, turned handle on door. It was locked ... takes me everything I have to get my self there, so you can imagine my * moment , it is Thursday check. It is 10 am check , no messages or missed calls on phone. Check , so why the heck is the damn door locked . I even made sure I had right door .i must have looked like a fool standing there . Just at that moment a security guard happened by. She asked if I needed help,   I just nodded. And said the door is locked and I have a appointment,  just like that she took out her phone and called the office .  She said unlock the damn door you have a client out here. Then hung up ,a few seconds later A very sheepish receptionist open door , the security guard smiled at me as I said thank you. Then did the kindest thing put her hand on my shoulder, then walked away , It was just a smallest gesture , but it brought tears to my eyes , reminding me that there are caring people out there ...  needless to say session was a bust after that

Christmas Eve here .. my house usually with only 3. Now has nine, 3 of the nine are under 5  so a very busy age . I am having triggers  from boys yelling and screaming , everything that boys their age should be doing , I have retreated to my man cave in hopes of finding my center , so I can rejoin the family , and not look like a spaced out one,, wishing you all the very best.

Hello . New to this site, well to be honest new to this whole CPSTD , it has been 8 months of confusion and agony , the last 4 I have been in therapy,I have read many posts on here , now taking the plunge . My T recommended this site as a way to not feel I am the only one in world suffering . Even just sharing this has been difficult, thank you blueberry for direction on how to post ..