The word 'integration' does seem very important.
I wasn't entirely sure about what it entailed, but I think that my course of EMDR probably achieved it. At the time, it didn't feel like it, but over the next few months something seemed to change.
So, despite the fact that my trauma started at birth, and was intensified over the next few years, so the treatment was based on what I was told, and family stories, it had a positive effect.
Now, I can just accept it. It's an odd change and hard to put into words, but I wonder if this is an example of integration.
I wasn't entirely sure about what it entailed, but I think that my course of EMDR probably achieved it. At the time, it didn't feel like it, but over the next few months something seemed to change.
So, despite the fact that my trauma started at birth, and was intensified over the next few years, so the treatment was based on what I was told, and family stories, it had a positive effect.
Now, I can just accept it. It's an odd change and hard to put into words, but I wonder if this is an example of integration.