Absolutely, Jenny B. I know exactly what you mean. It's only recently I realised that good weather is a trigger for emotional flashbacks. For years I believed that I "couldn't cope" with warm weather, because my nm couldn't, and after all, I am my nm because she told me I was!
You are so right as well about sunshine and summer being all about being young and carefree and living life to the full. Our parents denied us this pleasure, so no wonder we are triggered.
Like you, I am in my early fifties and have been saved by my husband. I am trying, with the help of therapy, to "rewrite my story" and yesterday I went to the coast, in the sunshine, along with crowds of people, and enjoyed it. Like you, I have spent years avoiding such situations.
I hope very much that you can also start to live life more fully. A year ago, I wouldn't have been able to get out and about in the sunshine. I have moved through doing these things, but not really enjoying them and am just getting hints that I can do and enjoy.
There is hope, Jenny, and being on OOTS has helped enormously. I hope, in turn, that we can help you too.
Best wishes,
Libby.
You are so right as well about sunshine and summer being all about being young and carefree and living life to the full. Our parents denied us this pleasure, so no wonder we are triggered.
Like you, I am in my early fifties and have been saved by my husband. I am trying, with the help of therapy, to "rewrite my story" and yesterday I went to the coast, in the sunshine, along with crowds of people, and enjoyed it. Like you, I have spent years avoiding such situations.
I hope very much that you can also start to live life more fully. A year ago, I wouldn't have been able to get out and about in the sunshine. I have moved through doing these things, but not really enjoying them and am just getting hints that I can do and enjoy.
There is hope, Jenny, and being on OOTS has helped enormously. I hope, in turn, that we can help you too.
Best wishes,
Libby.