Sometimes I feel like I want to be nurtured as one would nurture a child. For those of us who missed out on that sort of thing back when it was supposed to happen, I think that's only natural.
Re: shame, I'll bet your T wouldn't be at all surprised if you shared this craving with her, and maybe it would help open the way for some breakthroughs in therapy. One thought: is there something your H could do to help you satisfy this need at home? Maybe you could figure out how, when you need it, he could provide you something like the kind of bodywork you get from T. My own partner does some types of bodywork (just stuff that we came up with—nothing "formal") for me right before bed, and it's very calming.
If it helps to think of it this way, there's a very strong chemical basis for the craving you describe: oxytocin. You may need more of it. It could be an important ingredient for healing (https://myalcomy.com/body-language-blog/oxytocin-touch)
Re: shame, I'll bet your T wouldn't be at all surprised if you shared this craving with her, and maybe it would help open the way for some breakthroughs in therapy. One thought: is there something your H could do to help you satisfy this need at home? Maybe you could figure out how, when you need it, he could provide you something like the kind of bodywork you get from T. My own partner does some types of bodywork (just stuff that we came up with—nothing "formal") for me right before bed, and it's very calming.
If it helps to think of it this way, there's a very strong chemical basis for the craving you describe: oxytocin. You may need more of it. It could be an important ingredient for healing (https://myalcomy.com/body-language-blog/oxytocin-touch)