I attended a rotten, pretend-religious sort of school, where the hypocrisy ground me into a zombie-like feeling leading to ... get me outta here.
Then, one day, going into the school from the 9-mile bus trip to get there, I walked in, and totally unconsciously, went to set my books and winter clothes in place, and ... with no forethought, no hidden or inner voices, just turned around and walked the entire 9 miles home.
The parents didn't care (they'd already written me off, the school did no search or inform police, none of that. I returned to the school the next day, but felt so much freer for that walk in freedom.
In retrospect, that walk signifies my true separation, at least in my heart, from a place which was harmful to the 'soul' they said they were saving from ... something I guess it was them from whom I needed the separation, and that absent-minded walk was the start of the separation/freedom trip that continues ...
Then, one day, going into the school from the 9-mile bus trip to get there, I walked in, and totally unconsciously, went to set my books and winter clothes in place, and ... with no forethought, no hidden or inner voices, just turned around and walked the entire 9 miles home.
The parents didn't care (they'd already written me off, the school did no search or inform police, none of that. I returned to the school the next day, but felt so much freer for that walk in freedom.
In retrospect, that walk signifies my true separation, at least in my heart, from a place which was harmful to the 'soul' they said they were saving from ... something I guess it was them from whom I needed the separation, and that absent-minded walk was the start of the separation/freedom trip that continues ...