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#31
1) I cycled this morning for 10 mins and it felt really grounding
2) I drove a bit more
3) I was able to work out my feelings about something
#32
The Cafe / Re: Favourite self care film?
July 06, 2018, 08:40:18 PM
I do love to binge watch  Big Bang Theory. Love how they're all insecure in their own individual quirky ways, yet still are all close friends! Helps me to not think I'm the only weirdo geek out there either!   :whistling:
#33
Hi Cyd  :heythere:
I'm sorry you felt so distressed and overwhelmed you hurt yourself.

I hope you've taken care of your leg ok.

It can feel such a scary, lonely place can't it, when we get to that zone in ourselves where the utter pain and confusion is torn out of us in harming our own self.

I really empathise with you.  :hug:

Are there any other ways it can 'come out' as so to speak? I often think the underlying emotion behind EFs as well as the scariness of them, is the injustice of having to live with so much un asked for pain.

Writing out my anger or grief at the injustice of it I can find helpful.

Crying uncontrollably can sometimes be quite clearing and refreshing.
Would these be worth a try?

I really hope you can get though this.

Laura



#34
The Cafe / Re: Favourite self care film?
July 04, 2018, 06:53:46 PM
I'm liking everyone's reasons to their choices.

Ahhhh yes I love The Terminal too BeHea1thy.  :thumbup: I might even watch it later.  ;D

Laura  :grouphug:
#35
The Cafe / Favourite self care film?
June 27, 2018, 08:40:40 PM
So today I bought Mrs Doubtfire on DVD because that has always been my favourite film and find it so soothing when my inner child is strong.

I love Robin Williams. So sad he's not here in the world anymore. He had an awful time too.

Anyway, question is;

What is your favourite film(s) for self soothing?

Laura   :)
#36
Other / Re: The Healing Porch - Part 3
June 24, 2018, 03:38:43 PM
Hi, I'm gently tiptoeing around the outside to get to the porch, I don't want to startle anyone. I'm feeling drained and sleepy but can't sleep.
I've spotted an empty rocker so I'll sit down and look out onto the horizon. The warm air is relaxing. I gently close my eyes and feel safe, at ease and present. The gentle breeze is refreshing.
#37
Quote from: Blueberry on June 23, 2018, 09:48:12 PM
3) I stood up for myself and my boundaries

Amazing! Go you  :thumbup:
#38
Thanks kdke for being reassuring and kind

The healing porch is a really  beautiful thread and idea!

It's morning here and already feeling on edge and self critical. I'm laying down and gently thinking of being on the porch with no noise but birds and flies buzzing softly around. Sitting with a mug of hot choc in hand and slippers on feet, wearing slouchy clothes, feeling completely at ease with the other people also on the porch.

I get up and ask if anyone wants a hot choc too?

Thanks for helping me find a safe space that I can develop in my mind now!  :hug:


#39
1. I worked through binge urges for 6 hours
2. I walked my dog late in evening and saw beautiful sun setting over the field
3. I browsed some magazines in a shop I had never ventured into before
(But didn't buy one haha!)
#40
Hi Cheyenne,

Sorry to hear you have been recently diagnosed with cptsd. But I hope the community here helps you feel that you're not alone. (I used to think I was the very minority and the weirdo in the room until I found more out about complex trauma and this forum).

I'm sorry you're experiencing such highs and the lows. I really know what you mean. A doctor once described it to me as having to manage saw tooth emotions.

Talking to someone with knowledge and understanding in how our mind handles emotions after sustained trauma can be healing. It can help us understand what's going on more and the brain  relearns it's not in danger all the time as it was adapted to be programmed to.

So go you for also noting it's early days.  :thumbup:


We're all here for you in this journey together.

:grouphug:

#41
Thank you so much Blueberry for replying.

Going to look at those links this eve.

I think the dissociative disorder means it is hard to find 'one place' that is soothing. But I'll work on which of my inner identities I am feeling at the specific time of difficulty or distress, and find helpful imagery for those separate identities.

Thanks again  :hug:
#42
Hi there

I know that safe place imagery is meant to be really soothing and compassionate when I'm bombarded and overwhelmed with fear, my inner critic, the idea I need to be be perfect to be safe etc or other heightened  stimuli.

But I have trouble forming one in my mind.

Sort of I don't really know where my ideal place would be, or what my ideal sounds or animals or landscape would be, because I feel so detached from any identity or awareness or who I am and what I like (if that makes sense).

Does anyone have any ideas to help with this?
Thank you!! :thumbup:

#43
1. I texted an old friend
2. A mantra card helped reassure me
3. I played fetch with my dog
#44
Hi Roe

I really struggle with nightmares too and often wake myself up from them from screaming or speaking out loud.

My therapist I see recommended that it's about trying to feel safe asap after waking from a nightmare so your brain can adjust to the here and now and help you fall back into a deeper higher quality sleep.

She said there are night lights you can buy that turn on with a loud noise like clapping your hands (so you don't have to move if youre in a freeze state).

I sometimes play podcasts when trying to drift off so the sound of the person's voice or content of the podcast completely takes me away from subconscious thoughts about my abusers or me.

Unfortunately I'm not sure nightmares ever completely go away but trying to reduce the fear created by the awful traumatising emotions and memories they bring up is (what I have been told) the best method.
#45
Hey,

I'm new here. I am so so grateful I have come across this community. So first, thank you.

I think I'm becoming to realise that the utter pain and terror of C trauma is magnified by not feeling anyone in my life; some professionals, family, friends understand the crippling life, trauma will bring at times.

I hope these forums and people here help me cope with my distress better. I'm pretty sure they will.

Thanks again.