My partner wanted time to himself. This triggered me. I have neglect and abandonment trauma from childhood. The trauma response was and still is strong.
I tried to deal with it and focus on the present world, that my partner needs time for his own mental health, but a day extra got added on to our time apart when I wasn't expecting it.
I feel like I have fallen into a severe depression and ongoing trauma response state. I can't feel warmth or love. I feel everything has ended, is ending and it's just happening in slow motion.
My partner is frustrated and hurt, because I can't recognise him. He keeps telling me that what I am experiencing isn't real, that 'everything is ok' and I feel angrier and angrier, and like I'm going insane, because it feels real to me. I feel like he is gone, like he left me, and I feel dead inside.
I can't stop crying and I haven't been looking after myself very well this week. I feel frightened and out of control. I also can't advise my partner what to do at the moment. I feel very lost.
I tried to deal with it and focus on the present world, that my partner needs time for his own mental health, but a day extra got added on to our time apart when I wasn't expecting it.
I feel like I have fallen into a severe depression and ongoing trauma response state. I can't feel warmth or love. I feel everything has ended, is ending and it's just happening in slow motion.
My partner is frustrated and hurt, because I can't recognise him. He keeps telling me that what I am experiencing isn't real, that 'everything is ok' and I feel angrier and angrier, and like I'm going insane, because it feels real to me. I feel like he is gone, like he left me, and I feel dead inside.
I can't stop crying and I haven't been looking after myself very well this week. I feel frightened and out of control. I also can't advise my partner what to do at the moment. I feel very lost.