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I'm about 4hrs out of Sydney and am willing to go there for treatment. I'd love any info you have.

Is there anyone else here in Australia who has found good help? Would you share that information?

Hi Kizzie, I am trying both new therapists and volunteer work so not sure why you think i wont do those things. haven't tried Befrienders yet I don't think we have them in Australia.

I need my old psychologist back. I yearn for her....or my inner child does. She was my primary attachment figure the closest to a safe loving moyher that i never had and have deeply yearned for my whole life and though she has deeply traumatised me, I need her! It's like a terrifies child needing their mum and her abandoning them. My inner child is rocking in intense distress and just calling for her. It's so painful!! The adult part of me can see what the psychologist did was harmful and can see its not black and white but my little child doesn't understand and I just need her back. I'm stuck in a horrible terrifying place of abandonment and there's no relief. No other safe person to go to. I feel worthless.

I am feeling so frustrated and angry that I can't find help! I'm sick of being told to read a book. I need a really good trauma therapist. I need a good facilitated support group and I'm so so sick of looking for and asking for help and being let down. There is NOTHJNG here. Not even a general grief support group! I am SO alone. I don't even have an emergency contact or next of kin. I'm heartbroken and feel very worthless. Why can't I effing find help!!?? I really hate the human race sometimes.

I'm reating flashback management on page 146. Step 4....speak reassuringly to your inner child. What if I don't know how to be there for my inner child or aren't good enough at it? I have no good parenting to go off of and I feel scared about betraying and abandoning myself cos I don't know HOW to be there for my inner child.

I feel proud of myself....it's a small glimmer of hope, a small win. I was feeling awful and I did some mindfulness meditation. I had stopped doing it because it was an audio track in my old psychologists voice and she has deeply traumatised me so I couldn't listen to her voice. I have begun to try and re-remember the exercise in my own voice and I did it and I feel so much better briefly! I need help to remember to do it again. I'm scared I will think myself out of it, or avoid doing it......does anyone else have that problem?  I am also proud because I am sick with a virus and really mentally scared cos I'm alone but I texted my neighbour and asked her if I could have a whinge over text and she said yes. I gave myself permission to complain about how sick I felt. I needed that and I did a good thing for myself and felt relieved at having a safe space to get it out!

Thanks Elphanigh,

My neighbour checked in on my and bought me some packets of soup and she's going to pick me up freshop soup from the shops. Just that helped me feel a little more relaxed, less scared and less alone.

Hi all,

I've am fighting a sinus and ear infection. I don't taste or smell anything and my right ear is totally blocked. My left is slowly getting there. I can't breathe through my nose if I lay down. I feel scared when I am sick and on my own. I think it's odd because I used to work as a registered nurse in intensive care managing ventilated and critically I'll people but when I have a head cold I feel scared. I don't want to be alone. I need the comfort of family....if I had a safe one. Is it just me or do others feel scared and want others around when they feel sick?

Hi all,

I'm feeling pretty upset and hope I can come here to talk about it in a safe place.

I have a neighbour I've been making friends with and it's broken down over the aggressive and frightening behaviour of another neighbour. I'm fairly confident in my decision to back off but it's still upsetting. I need to talk about it but don't feel I can go into the details here. I'm upset. My abdomen is crampy....from stress. I automatically start blaming myself and that's the scariest thing. Does anyone else have experiences of lots of relationships failing? I'm not saying it's a bad thing. People are so mean and judgemental!

So I just fired the support agency who I had support workers through. I am pretty confident that it was the right decision. Its been a string of crappy even harmful service.  To continue with them feels like not protecting myself against more harm. The problem is now I have no support worker and I feel afraid.

Making the right decisions for myself don't always feel good......is that ok? Is it normal? or does it mean it was the wrong decision?

Hi Kizzie,

I am aware of Blue Knot. They have referred me to a 'trauma informed' therapist. She had no idea what she was doing. She actually said to me...I'm at a lost, I apologise'.

I need hope that there is help out there.

An organisation here in Australia gave me the name of a psychologist to try out, I had an online session with her, she said she was happy to see me. Then emails me a few days later to say she won't see me.
The same day I hear that my support worker, who I see once a week and like, wont see me anymore because last time we met I was really sad and crying and emotional. The support organisation said to me that support workers are for social support....not emotional support. FFS. I really hate people.

Thanks San. I need to hear that its ok to feel angry. That I am ok to feel angry.

Hi San,

Thanks for the directions. This is my first visit here. I am feeling frightened and angry. So if this is a magic place, I need a safe place to feel angry where I won't be told off for my emotions or judged.
I imagine a boxing bag on a stand that I can punch as I need to and then probably a safe person to hold me when I need to cry and to validate my feelings and just be compassionate and kind. The kind voice and safety I don't have for myself.