I'm not sure why I feel like I need to write this on OOTS, but I keep thinking it, so I'm going to follow through.
To Hope (five-year-old part of me/not to be confused with Hope who is a integral member of OOTS):
You told two people. You told Therapist and you (through me) told Friend. You told how what they did affected your body for your whole life. Therapist and Friend knew what those men did and they were not surprised by what you told them. They said it made sense. You are NOT ALONE with that secret any more. NOT ALONE. Two people who care about you know. They do not think you are bad or dirty. They feel ? sad did they say? I don't remember. Therapist said that secrets make embarrassment and humiliation bigger and that people knowing make those smaller. Now two people know. They care. They understand. They heard your hurt and fear and humiliation you have carried alone for so long. I know you still hurt and I don't know if anything makes that go away. ALL THAT stuff: the abuse and effects really happened; can' t erase it. But the part you shared today, two people know and you are not alone.
To Hope (five-year-old part of me/not to be confused with Hope who is a integral member of OOTS):
You told two people. You told Therapist and you (through me) told Friend. You told how what they did affected your body for your whole life. Therapist and Friend knew what those men did and they were not surprised by what you told them. They said it made sense. You are NOT ALONE with that secret any more. NOT ALONE. Two people who care about you know. They do not think you are bad or dirty. They feel ? sad did they say? I don't remember. Therapist said that secrets make embarrassment and humiliation bigger and that people knowing make those smaller. Now two people know. They care. They understand. They heard your hurt and fear and humiliation you have carried alone for so long. I know you still hurt and I don't know if anything makes that go away. ALL THAT stuff: the abuse and effects really happened; can' t erase it. But the part you shared today, two people know and you are not alone.