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I am reading your replies and receive encouragement and comfort. Thank you.

I managed to contact someone at Canon. T hey are sending a replacement printer.

On Thursday at work I have to make a presentation three times. I'm dreading that.

Moondance, my heart sank when I read your post. I'm so sorry that you have to deal with those things.

But given that he talks and then later changes what he says, I just can't take it seriously.

I really relate to this. In my case, I think my H would say either what he thought he should say or he said what he thought would get him out of trouble. He also would not say anything, thinking that was the safest route. His main goal was to stay regulated, which meant trying to keep me from being upset ("content," in his words). Trust yourself. Listen. Observe.

I remembered that I was very triggered by my dogs vet, quite some time ago. It kept me from taking the dog in for awhile. Over time and further interactions with vet, I was no longer triggered, but I remember it being really difficult.

Thank you for your support.

Last week I worked 10-12 hour days on three of the days. This weekend I will be working all weekend from home. I've already worked over six hours and have a long way to go. I know it won't be like this forever, but I'm really sinking.

I did get encouragement and help from my supervisor on Friday.

My two-month old printer isn't working. I can't find the code I need for the warranty. Being online just keeps sending me in circles. Issues with this tech stuff is triggering to me. For those who might remember, similar feelings to when I had phone issues.

I'm so tired and stressed that the smallest thing feels like an anchor around me, keeping my head under water. I needed something for work. Couldn't find it and assume that ex-H took it.

Over time, the job will not be so taxing, but for now I am emotionally, physically, and mentally exhausted.

The vet made some comment about how my cat was grumpy and uncooperative.  That triggered me.  She was hungry, scared, and didn't understand what was happening.  She has also been to the vet a lot lately.  I think this person said this because it is making it hard for them to tell what is a symptom and what is behavior. 

Kind of crazy for the vet to expect any cat to be cooperative.

Thanks, Armee and San. I really needed to hear that.

Today was a 12 hour day. I'm exhausted. Just trying to keep my head above water.

San, I'm sad that things have been so hard and painful and overwhelming. "Too much" for sure.

Thanks Moondance and Rainy.

My critical thoughts are saying "you should have known better, why did you let this happen?, you should have trusted your gut early on."

I've had that dance around in my head many times. You are human. You had hopes and desires. You didn't do anything wrong.

Husband and cat are two really big issues. You know some of my issues with my ex-H. It is confusing and heartbreaking, trying to navigate the relationship. I've also had pets that I've had to put down (cats and a dog). It must be really hard knowing that your kitty is ill. I'm glad that for now she is okay.

  Big realizations and growth. You are working hard. Yea for you.

Thank you, everyone. Your responses brought tears to my eyes.

I've spent most of the weekend working from home.  I feel pretty anxious about this upcoming week. My anxiety is high, but not over the top and I'm grateful for that.

Overwhelmed

Exhausted

Inadequate

I'm sorry that your session with T was disappointing. Also sorry that your mom turned what you shared to focus on her needs.

New job position starts tomorrow.