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SOT - Sense of Threat / Re: Amazing Roommate but I am ...
Last post by Lina24 - Today at 03:51:19 PMHi,
I think I know what you mean. I left home at 18 to escape, met someone and ended up living with him and his parents. His mother was one of the kindest, loveliest and caring people I have ever met. She I.mediately accepted me and treated me like a daughter. I panicked and felt trapped and suffocated. I had not known motherly love like this before and it was such an alien feeling. I didn't know anything about cptsd or know I was being triggered at the time.
In the end, I had to say something. She understood and agreed to tone it back a bit. She wasn't offended or upset at all. I was still triggered by her, but I came to know it wasn't an attack, it was just unfamiliarity with what care felt like.
I understand how you feel walking on eggshells in someone else's home, especially when you live with fear triggers. I never felt comfortable and always assumed I was in the way or a burden to other people. Looking back, I think what everyone has already said is right. There are kind people and, usually, they are happy to help you if they can. I don't like people to tip toe around me but if I know they understand my reactions, I often feel less frightened of a situation.
I think I know what you mean. I left home at 18 to escape, met someone and ended up living with him and his parents. His mother was one of the kindest, loveliest and caring people I have ever met. She I.mediately accepted me and treated me like a daughter. I panicked and felt trapped and suffocated. I had not known motherly love like this before and it was such an alien feeling. I didn't know anything about cptsd or know I was being triggered at the time.
In the end, I had to say something. She understood and agreed to tone it back a bit. She wasn't offended or upset at all. I was still triggered by her, but I came to know it wasn't an attack, it was just unfamiliarity with what care felt like.
I understand how you feel walking on eggshells in someone else's home, especially when you live with fear triggers. I never felt comfortable and always assumed I was in the way or a burden to other people. Looking back, I think what everyone has already said is right. There are kind people and, usually, they are happy to help you if they can. I don't like people to tip toe around me but if I know they understand my reactions, I often feel less frightened of a situation.
#2
RE - Re-experiencing Trauma / Re: (Warning: PA, SA , EA talk...
Last post by Chart - Today at 12:40:36 PM
#3
Recovery Journals / Re: I Am
Last post by Chart - Today at 12:25:28 PMBach, I'm just re-watching the video I linked above. I just want to say that it's FULL of information, and often he doesn't go into details or general info about certain subjects he's discussing. I first saw this video about eight months ago (sortof guessing the time-frame) and I'm realizing that with this second viewing of the video, AND the direct experience I've gained over the past couple years doing vagus-nerve work and seeking to stimulate my parasympathetic nervous system, I'm only now truly understanding what is being discussed and talked about. I also have irritated bowel syndrome, an inguinal hernia, and right-arm tendon-muscle pain. I've had all these things for decades (excepting the hernia, which I got the same month I discovered Cptsd 
, and am only now fully understanding how all these things are inter-related and how the vagus nerve is effected and effecting... Hope that makes sense. I guess what I'm saying is that this is a big complex thing and it's taken me time to "figure" it all out... or some of it out... I'm still learning. But, for the past two years this has been the most impactful treatment of my Cptsd that I've found. For me at least, in terms of energy and time put in, I am getting the best results from just consistent daily stimulation of my para-sympathetic nervous system. I'm definitely better today than two years ago. It's long, but it works. I plan on sticking with it.
, and am only now fully understanding how all these things are inter-related and how the vagus nerve is effected and effecting... Hope that makes sense. I guess what I'm saying is that this is a big complex thing and it's taken me time to "figure" it all out... or some of it out... I'm still learning. But, for the past two years this has been the most impactful treatment of my Cptsd that I've found. For me at least, in terms of energy and time put in, I am getting the best results from just consistent daily stimulation of my para-sympathetic nervous system. I'm definitely better today than two years ago. It's long, but it works. I plan on sticking with it. #5
Eating Issues / Re: too many issues with food
Last post by dollyvee - Today at 11:25:44 AMHey asdis,
I hope you're able to take that doctor at face value and what she can do for you, anc not take her lack of understanding as something to do with you. Just because she's never had to go through certain things in life doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you.
Sometimes too, people need space to calibrate information and it's not always necessarily a judgement. And sometimes it is, but that would be on her and not you.
Yes, I get you about making choices based on convenience. I take it as information when I get sick from that that it is in fact not all in my head, and something is happening. When I don't make those choices, I'm taking care of myself and feel better for it. I do get worried about lingering inflammation and "what have I done/have I screwed it all up" but I think that's FOO stuff to process. For me, there's also a lot of anxiety and/or depression/feeling down that comes with inflammation.
Sending you support
dolly
I hope you're able to take that doctor at face value and what she can do for you, anc not take her lack of understanding as something to do with you. Just because she's never had to go through certain things in life doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you.
Sometimes too, people need space to calibrate information and it's not always necessarily a judgement. And sometimes it is, but that would be on her and not you.
Yes, I get you about making choices based on convenience. I take it as information when I get sick from that that it is in fact not all in my head, and something is happening. When I don't make those choices, I'm taking care of myself and feel better for it. I do get worried about lingering inflammation and "what have I done/have I screwed it all up" but I think that's FOO stuff to process. For me, there's also a lot of anxiety and/or depression/feeling down that comes with inflammation.
Sending you support
dolly
#6
Recovery Journals / Re: I Am
Last post by Chart - Today at 11:02:14 AMBach, my experience is that somatic work can very easily be triggering. And sometimes violently triggering... I've been working with vagus nerve and parasympathetic stimulation for two years now. For me it's working. Here's a good introduction if you're interested:
Pradip Jamnadas
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irn3cFHmK-Y
Just a suggestion, ignore it you don't think it's a good idea for you.
Pradip Jamnadas
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irn3cFHmK-Y
Just a suggestion, ignore it you don't think it's a good idea for you.
#7
Recovery Journals / Re: I Am
Last post by Bach - November 15, 2025, 10:25:25 PMI'm in a flashback and I overstimulated myself with physical and somatic exercise because my body is so unbearable to be in right now. I did those exercises sort of frantically because I had such a strong urge to try to "fix my mistake" (an interpersonal communication that I didn't handle well), which would 100% have made the situation worse. The exercises did conquer that urge, but the flashback is still happening in my stomach and I have to just tolerate it for now because I must neither overpush the buttons nor automatically turn to a pill.
#8
RE - Re-experiencing Trauma / Re: (Warning: PA, SA , EA talk...
Last post by LadyBoar - November 15, 2025, 07:20:42 PMI'm so sorry I missed your post and I really hope you managed to get through the week until your session.
This reminded me of when, after I moved countries, I went back home to visit family, I was supposed to stay at my parents house, my old house...I couldn't do it. I had panick attacks and could not sleep. I manage to get a BNB and I will never again stay at my parents house, especially without my husband. So I can understand the fear at least a little bit.
I truly hope you are well now.
And when it comes to your brother's ex-girlfriends, it was not your responsibility to protect them and you were doing your best to survive, I'm sure if you were in a better place you would have helped them in different ways. Their hurt and pain falls solely on the one who cause it, not on you for not preventing it, even if you could.
Again, wishing you all the best.
This reminded me of when, after I moved countries, I went back home to visit family, I was supposed to stay at my parents house, my old house...I couldn't do it. I had panick attacks and could not sleep. I manage to get a BNB and I will never again stay at my parents house, especially without my husband. So I can understand the fear at least a little bit.
I truly hope you are well now.
And when it comes to your brother's ex-girlfriends, it was not your responsibility to protect them and you were doing your best to survive, I'm sure if you were in a better place you would have helped them in different ways. Their hurt and pain falls solely on the one who cause it, not on you for not preventing it, even if you could.
Again, wishing you all the best.
#9
Physical Issues / Re: Skin problems in stressful...
Last post by Erec - November 15, 2025, 04:53:14 PMYes, I understand you, I also need topical corticosteroid medications. The strange thing is that sometimes this type of dermatological inflammation "flares up" as quickly as a person blushes.
One factor that increases the risk of psoriasis is lithium intake, which is unfortunate because that particular drug could have positive effects in cases of C-PTSD.
One factor that increases the risk of psoriasis is lithium intake, which is unfortunate because that particular drug could have positive effects in cases of C-PTSD.
#10
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: new here - still in the st...
Last post by NarcKiddo - November 15, 2025, 03:08:40 PMWelcome. I'm glad you found us. That experience with your friend really sucks. And you're right. It cuts both ways and she could perfectly well have contacted you. I'm sorry she didn't.