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#1

Recovery Journals / Re: I Am

Last post by Chart - Today at 06:08:12 PM

Happy New Year to you too, Bach!
    

#2

Recovery Journals / Re: The tipping point…

Last post by Chart - Today at 06:06:51 PM

So tonight is just serious hang-out on the Forum. I'm really good at being lazy. I might go take a walk later. An evening stroll through Bourges. When I first came to Europe in 1991 I was (maybe like many Americans) just enthralled with the old houses. The centers of most European cities often have buildings that date back to the 1500s, sometimes earlier. The Cathedral in Bourges was started around 1195. So, even after being here now for over twenty years, I still LOVE the center of old towns. And aside from Paris, I never lived in town, I've always lived in really small towns or the countryside. So Bourges is now just outside my door. I don't think I'll ever get over the wonder of it. There's a three-quarter moon tonight. It's cold, but the bells are ringing, and I'm safe when I'm alone.

#3

Recovery Journals / Re: I Am

Last post by Bach - Today at 06:00:54 PM

NKI, it's probably good for me to think about it.  But yeah, today is a better day for an ice cream party!  I'll think about it again next year   

< OOTS ice cream party. 

It really does look like that, I've seen the photos :-)

   

Happy New Year to all!     

#4

Recovery Journals / Re: The tipping point…

Last post by Chart - Today at 05:54:57 PM

Thanks NK! All that really helps. I actually don't go to doctors, except for my kids. I don't like to recognize that I am weak or broken or need anything. I've never really bought into the western Cartesian idea that the body is a machine. Most people don't, yet doctors seem to just plug along with that idea. It's funny because even so, I've not been particularly kind to my body over the years. That's changing and it's a sign that I actually went and saw an osteopath. He was very gentle, but it did indeed hurt like heck. He said I should come back in a month if I wanted, no pressure. I immediately took an appointment. I've had off and on pain in my shoulder all day, but it's different than before. It's actually REALLY important that I regain a certain amount of strength there. I've got tiles and roofing work next monday, and the bank account is seriously depleted since Christmas...

#5

Recovery Journals / Re: The tipping point…

Last post by TheBigBlue - Today at 05:42:02 PM

Thank you, Chart.
Happy New Year to you too 

#6

Recovery Journals / Re: The tipping point…

Last post by NarcKiddo - Today at 05:30:40 PM

Ugh. Shoulders suck! My right one has been playing up all this year for no obvious reason, but it has stopped me from boxing. Which is annoying because I find pad work very therapeutic. Taking my rage out on an exercise bike or walking on a treadmill just doesn't cut it!  I am glad you went to see the osteopath. It is also well worth making a policy of doing some shoulder rehab exercises both now and even when it feels better, just to keep on top of things. And see the osteo regularly if you can. My fitness trainer does a rehab massage once a month this days. It hurts to absolute heck as he is very strong but I think part of the reason he is so effective is because he dares to go harder than my regular "nice" massage therapist would. Here endeth the lesson...

Sending love to you and the inner children. Wishing you all the best for 2026. See you next year. 

#7

Recovery Journals / Re: Living As All of Me

Last post by HannahOne - Today at 05:14:15 PM

HannahOne, Finally putting a name on my condition, Cptsd, was a huge help for me. It has changed everything. I now know what I am struggling about. As mentioned, I think my struggle got much more difficult once I realized all the interwoven aspects of developmental trauma. And as I started to link things up, and connect the dots, the conflicting emotions were terrible. I struggle enormously still. There's so much to make sense of and work out. But it helps so much knowing that I'm not the only one. Thank you for sharing your story.
 

Hi Chart, thank you for commenting. Yes I seem to go in and out of being willing to accept that this is CPTSD, somehow that fact itself can be triggering. Maybe because I didn't speak about my experience, and when someone found out it was always a disaster.

I think that's something I'm still realizing too, the "interwoven aspects." It's a lot to make sense of for sure. I once compared it to a football-field sized waffle. I have to digest this ENTIRE thing!? It's going to take me a lifetime, LOL!

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Other / Re: Our Healing Porch Part 8

Last post by Chart - Today at 05:12:19 PM

I'm spending New Year's here on the porch. Got a book and brought the scrabble board if anyone is up for a quiet game.
 

#9

Therapy / Re: Heart Opening Music

Last post by Chart - Today at 05:06:37 PM

This one always tears my heart open:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vsMIuuV05uc&list=RDvsMIuuV05uc&start_radio=1

#10

Recovery Journals / Re: Living As All of Me

Last post by HannahOne - Today at 04:59:50 PM

HannahOne,
I can tell 100% that you are a beautiful human being with a heart of gold.

Hi Marcine THere's no emoticon for blushing.   Thank you for the kind words.