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Recovery Journals / Re: Healing journal (tw) Anger...

Last post by StartingHealing - Today at 12:50:39 AM

11/6/2025

I realized that I have some anger in there.  Nothing boiling, just a slow simmer.  I got snookered by the former spouse.  25 years ... All the lost opportunities.  All the stress, strain, drama for what?  I had a "idea" that there would be a partnership, a building of something and it was a build, destroy, build, destroy, and over the years the destroy included me. 

I have grieved the what I thought it might be.  I have grieved the what it actually was.  I have grieved the person that I used to be. I remember him through a dark glass faintly. 

And now, as I gaze out into the mass of humans that are lumped into this blob of ambiguity that the word-symbol "society" is somehow supposed to cover I wonder what in the ever living { cuss word } is going on.  So much push for everything to be online.  All the socials.  Basic human connection turns into content no matter the context.  Video's get taken, sliced and diced, and uploaded for ... what exactly?  Likes? Clicks? Monetization?  Yeesh.

Yeah, there is anger. 

Wishing all here all the best

#2

NSC - Negative Self-Concept / Re: The line between self care...

Last post by EB - November 06, 2025, 10:23:36 PM

Hi Lina24

I really appreciate what Sanmagic7 and Kizzie said in their response to your confusion.

I'd like to add that what you said about how'd you respond to someone else in your situation, how you would offer consideration and kindness, is what I've learned to do when facing the same dilemma.
Sometimes I will ask how I'd treat someone else then use that as direction for how to treat myself.

I'm fairly new to this, in fact this is my first post. So maybe not ideal advice but I do know
You absolutely do matter and deserve the same kindness and respect as you would show another.

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Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: New here

Last post by Recovery68 - November 06, 2025, 09:17:31 PM

I just want to feel like I belong somewhere and that I am seen and appreciated.

We do get it, you DO belong here, and you will be seen and heard

Kizzie

Thank you so much Kizzie, it helps

#4

Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: New here

Last post by Recovery68 - November 06, 2025, 09:16:27 PM

Welcome to the forum  I hope you find what you're looking for here.

Thank you

#5

Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: New here

Last post by Recovery68 - November 06, 2025, 09:15:48 PM

Welcome. I'm glad you found us.

Thank you

#6

Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Outside my own head

Last post by Recovery68 - November 06, 2025, 09:15:04 PM

Ladyboar...  You ARE a survivor!!! It is something we live and hold on to BECAUSE of the trauma we experienced. No one in their right mind would choose the childhoods we had. So CELEBRATE YOU    I am finding my way through it by no longer viewing myself as someone who is healing or needs to be healed. I do not need fixing just more self-love and acceptance... more clarity and attunement.
I am learning to hold space for me as opposed to letting others in to steal my peace. Sending you much love and strength.
Beth

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Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: New here

Last post by Recovery68 - November 06, 2025, 09:07:12 PM

when you talk about people "don't getting it" and you "couldn't explain" really hit me. It's the same with me. I feel like I could spend years explaining it but my people would still would not get it, and it's a hard place to be. I'm sorry you feel lonely and abandoned. This is a experience I think a lot of us feel. I hope you can find comfort in knowing you are not alone in how you feel and that we get it.
Sending you support! Also sending pets to your pup!
 

Thank you Ladyboar, I appreciate your support so much. I am thrilled to give Gracie a pet from you! 💖🙏🏼

[anyone]

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Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: New here

Last post by Recovery68 - November 06, 2025, 09:02:44 PM

Hello! I see you.

Oh Beauty4ashes thank you so much. I realized I hadn't gotten any notifications that anyone had responded so I finally logged in to see if that was the reality. Thank goodness it was not, and you nailed every aspect of what it feels like not to be seen or acknowledged.
I am learning to fill these needs for myself so that I can then change how I experience people and situations. I am in a different place than I was and so I am grateful. One of the biggest changes is to stop seeing myself as broken or in need of healing, that just perpetuates the feeling of I am not enough.
In total transparency, I just finished a 3-day webinar that has provided with clarity and a resurrection of my worth. I will revisit the recordings when I feel myself slipping back into powerlessness.
I wish you the best and thank you again for your reply.
Beth

#9

Recovery Journals / Re: starting over

Last post by Chart - November 06, 2025, 08:20:17 PM

San, when I had my breakdown in '23, two friends (a couple) offered me work and have been employing me ever since. I work for them when I don't have other work, so they fill the gaps so to speak. They are humanists, highly sensitive, caring, intelligent, everything. Good loyal friends, and I'm not exaggerating when I say they've saved my butt these last two years. You're galpal sounds very similar. How wonderful to know there're good people out there (and who aren't on this Forum nor suffer from Cptsd :-)
Glad to hear you got dolled-up the other day. Me too I bought myself a slightly flashy clothing item and have been feeling good wearing it about. Funny the link between feeling good and looking good. Sometimes the latter helps the former.
And sorry to hear Trump is still monkey-wrenching your food stamps... 

Sending hugs and support.
 

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Recovery Journals / Re: I Am

Last post by Chart - November 06, 2025, 08:06:20 PM

This makes me feel a little bit hopeful that maybe it really is possible to unprogram at least some of what was programmed into my body so very long ago.

I'll buy into some of that hope too.