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#1
Recovery Journals / Re: starting over
Last post by Chart - Today at 03:40:59 PM
San, So very happy to hear you passed a good night of rest.
 :hug:
#2
Recovery Journals / Re: starting over
Last post by Desert Flower - Today at 02:22:13 PM
Cheering for you! :cheer:
Thank you for being here.  :hug:  :hug:  :hug:
#3
Recovery Journals / Re: Desert Flower's Recovery J...
Last post by Desert Flower - Today at 02:20:15 PM
Right. I'm here. Holding on.
Feeling detached now. Fair enough.
I won't give up. I won't give up. Not giving up.
Scared though.
#4
Recovery Journals / Re: starting over
Last post by sanmagic7 - Today at 01:41:52 PM
thanks so much, blueberry.  it's being a great trip going thru all that again.  good timing, too. i'm smiling  :yes:  :hug:
#5
Recovery Journals / Re: starting over
Last post by Blueberry - Today at 01:36:41 PM
Wow, san! Your story of the Beatles and then the Stones  :party:  :yourock:  :boogie:

Quote from: sanmagic7 on Today at 01:31:16 PMno anxiety last nite, and i slept all nite, got close to 8 hrs.  feel pretty good this morning.  and that's a weird feeling, but i'll make do!  lol!

Wonderful!  :cheer:  :cloud9:  :hug:
#6
Recovery Journals / Re: starting over
Last post by sanmagic7 - Today at 01:31:16 PM
thank you chart and DF.  i really flew back into my life for those paragraphs!  that was a pretty good feeling all by itself.   :hug:  :hug:

no anxiety last nite, and i slept all nite, got close to 8 hrs.  feel pretty good this morning.  and that's a weird feeling, but i'll make do!  lol!
#7
Recovery Journals / Re: Desert Flower's Recovery J...
Last post by sanmagic7 - Today at 01:26:59 PM
it is indeed unfair, DF.  no truer words ever said.  we've been left w/ all the clutter and damage to manage amid working at having a life at the same time.  i can totally relate to wanting it to stop.  *sigh*.  i'm glad you didn't give up - i'm glad you're here.  one day at a time, right?  or one hour, one minute sometimes.  we're surrounding you with support and care.  love and hugs  :bighug:
#8
Physical Issues / Re: The Body Keeps The Score (...
Last post by sanmagic7 - Today at 01:18:42 PM
i could only read parts of it, but it helped me understand how the ailments of my body were not necessarily of my own making.   :hug:
#9
Recovery Journals / Re: Desert Flower's Recovery J...
Last post by Desert Flower - Today at 01:08:45 PM
I briefly considered giving up (yesterday too). That scares me.
I couldn't possibly of course. "I've got so much going for me.", as they say.
I just want this to stop. I just feel so stupid for not making myself feel better. I'm just so fed up with me having to do all the work to feel better. It's so unfair.
I will now do some shopping for my girl to get out of the house and have some different input for my mind.
#10
AD - Emotional Dysregulation / Re: What is Joy?
Last post by Blueberry - Today at 01:06:32 PM
For me, joy is often a fleeting and very spontaneous emotion. I don't mind that it's fleeting. When I spontaneously smile or feel as if I'm radiating within, that's often brought about by joy.

For me, it's usually small things that bring joy: watching cute animals or birds and insects in the garden, seeing the first flowers of spring, seeing a flower still blooming in November, somebody spontaneously smiling at me especially a child, the sun coming through the clouds, talking to my own pets when I still had some, singing with others, looking at certain colours like certain blues and greens, colouring in using yellow and orange. I agree with Chart and NK that what gives one person joy is quite personal, so my examples are just that - what works for me. Your joys might be quite different.

I wrote a book of daily joys a good few years ago and that was really useful to have me dwelling on feeling joy even if just for a few minutes a day.

I think contentment is a really good state of being/mind to aim for. When I'm feeling contented, I think it's a longer-drawn out emotion than the spontaneous joy at the things I listed above. It's not so intense as joy, maybe that's why joy is fleeting for me, maybe I couldn't handle an intense feeling over a longer time without dissociating or something.