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#21
Therapy / Issues with CPT
Last post by pelicantown - February 02, 2026, 06:15:48 PMI've been in "regular" psychotherapy (talk therapy, I suppose!) for 6+ years now and have strived to start sex therapy with a different specialist. I've had two sessions with her now and enjoy them, but the cognitive processing therapy that we've been doing just doesn't seem to resonate with me.
I feel like it's more so for people who have persistent thought patterns and "If X then Y type" thought processes, but I'm someone who doesn't really have any thoughts in that manner (
). She gave me an exercise to do on "stuck points" but it took me eons to even try and think of an "If X then Y" statement or an action-consequence statement.
I'm someone who is very physiological where I simply feel emotions but don't have a thought behind them necessarily. Do I talk to her and revert back to talk therapy??? For the record, the "opposite end" of the spectrum, EMDR, also did not work for me when I tried it briefly (about 3-4 sessions). I simply started dissociating and it stopped becoming effective.
I feel like it's more so for people who have persistent thought patterns and "If X then Y type" thought processes, but I'm someone who doesn't really have any thoughts in that manner (
). She gave me an exercise to do on "stuck points" but it took me eons to even try and think of an "If X then Y" statement or an action-consequence statement. I'm someone who is very physiological where I simply feel emotions but don't have a thought behind them necessarily. Do I talk to her and revert back to talk therapy??? For the record, the "opposite end" of the spectrum, EMDR, also did not work for me when I tried it briefly (about 3-4 sessions). I simply started dissociating and it stopped becoming effective.
#22
Employment / Re: "Picking" a career
Last post by Kizzie - February 02, 2026, 06:00:31 PMI'm glad to hear you are recovering Teddy Bear, it sounds like you went through quite a bad period. Are you recovering on your own or do you have a therapist?
I'd personally be interested to hear about the mental health system where you live as Russia still remains a mystery in many ways. It seems odd that there is an acceptance of the ICD-10 but not the ICD-11 which does have CPTSD as a diagnosis. Is this something you could ask for from a therapist/the health system (i.e., that you be evaluated for CPTSD according to the ICD-11)? And may I ask what is "F20"?
Also, there is a guide we developed as part of a project a team of us completed recently which is for healthcare professionals and does cover complex relational trauma and complex PTSD, as well as trauma informed care, etc. It's here - https://www.outofthestorm.website/healthcare-project. It's only in English though so that may be prohibitive. If there is a T who does speak English though, it likely would be quite helpful.
I do hope you are able to carve out a career in the near future, it sounds like you have some ideas about what you'd like to do
I'd personally be interested to hear about the mental health system where you live as Russia still remains a mystery in many ways. It seems odd that there is an acceptance of the ICD-10 but not the ICD-11 which does have CPTSD as a diagnosis. Is this something you could ask for from a therapist/the health system (i.e., that you be evaluated for CPTSD according to the ICD-11)? And may I ask what is "F20"?
Also, there is a guide we developed as part of a project a team of us completed recently which is for healthcare professionals and does cover complex relational trauma and complex PTSD, as well as trauma informed care, etc. It's here - https://www.outofthestorm.website/healthcare-project. It's only in English though so that may be prohibitive. If there is a T who does speak English though, it likely would be quite helpful.
I do hope you are able to carve out a career in the near future, it sounds like you have some ideas about what you'd like to do
#23
Ideas/Tools for Recovery / Re: FREE Excellent Online Yoga...
Last post by Blueberry - February 02, 2026, 04:32:52 PMQuote from: Armee on January 30, 2026, 08:06:13 PMJust figuring out which arm im supposed to moveOh, you have that problem too? Useful to know that it's a dissociative disconnect.
#24
Recovery Journals / Re: the next step
Last post by NarcKiddo - February 02, 2026, 03:31:44 PMVanquishing minotaurs first thing in the morning sounds - I was going to say scary and not something I would want to do, but actually the word "empowering" popped into my brain so I shall go with that. You go, girl!
Hope the session with the T is helpful.
Hope the session with the T is helpful.
#25
Recovery Journals / Re: the next step
Last post by sanmagic7 - February 02, 2026, 02:08:37 PMthanks for the solidarity, hannah1. it's a rough way to start the day. 
TBB, sorry to hear you're going thru it as well. thank you for the support. hope therapy helps us both.
chart, thanks for sharing. i'm sending a caring hug filled w/ a giant bazooka to blow that frickin' minotaur into the next universe, where it belongs. 
that's the look on its face when it sees what's coming at it. 
and . . . there it goes! 
that's me waving good-bye to it!
whew, seems that vanquishing minotaurs first thing in the morning gets my adrenaline going!
looking forward to seeing my T, seeing what she's got in store for me and also hoping to figure out those explosive tears, what's behind them. emotional dysregulation? could that be a new label i can attach to my lapel?
TBB, sorry to hear you're going thru it as well. thank you for the support. hope therapy helps us both.
chart, thanks for sharing. i'm sending a caring hug filled w/ a giant bazooka to blow that frickin' minotaur into the next universe, where it belongs.
that's the look on its face when it sees what's coming at it. and . . . there it goes! that's me waving good-bye to it! whew, seems that vanquishing minotaurs first thing in the morning gets my adrenaline going!
looking forward to seeing my T, seeing what she's got in store for me and also hoping to figure out those explosive tears, what's behind them. emotional dysregulation? could that be a new label i can attach to my lapel?
#26
Recovery Journals / Re: Living As All of Me
Last post by sanmagic7 - February 02, 2026, 01:56:51 PMas TBB said, here we hold each other together, hold the net when you're on the tightwire a million feet above, isolated, alone, thinking you have to do it all by yourself. we are here for you, hannah1.
i can so relate to the loneliness, to not bothering parents w/ anything amiss. it is a burden just to have to figure out and take care of yourself at all times, let alone a 3-yr. old when you're a child yourself. my heart goes out to you. the chores will wait, you deserve that, have always deserved that. sending love and a hug filled with
gentleness to all of you.
i can so relate to the loneliness, to not bothering parents w/ anything amiss. it is a burden just to have to figure out and take care of yourself at all times, let alone a 3-yr. old when you're a child yourself. my heart goes out to you. the chores will wait, you deserve that, have always deserved that. sending love and a hug filled with
gentleness to all of you. #27
Recovery Journals / Re: Hope's Journal 2026
Last post by dollyvee - February 02, 2026, 10:35:31 AMHope, I hope you enjoy your digital vacation.
Thank you both for talking about Mother Hunger. As NK mentioned, it's funny how the synchronicity seems to happen. I had been looking for books to help with reparenting, and wasn't sure where to start. So, that might be a good place.
Sending you support,
dolly
Thank you both for talking about Mother Hunger. As NK mentioned, it's funny how the synchronicity seems to happen. I had been looking for books to help with reparenting, and wasn't sure where to start. So, that might be a good place.
Sending you support,
dolly
#28
Recovery Journals / Re: Post-Traumatic Growth Jour...
Last post by TheBigBlue - February 02, 2026, 02:51:30 AMSO, thank you for putting this into words and for sharing the poem. It carries so much gentleness and honesty. What you're describing makes deep sense - and it's also so hard for many of us. 🤍
#29
Recovery Journals / Re: Post-Traumatic Growth Jour...
Last post by Marcine - February 02, 2026, 12:17:53 AMHi SO,
Your poem speaks to me— how hard we all *try* and all the things we *do* to "become" ourselves. As if we aren't already enough...
"... born worthy... Listen. Remember."
Thank you for sharing your writing.
And I enjoyed the music you linked, a beat without tons of hype and with jazz influence.
Am I remembering correctly that somewhere on the forum you mentioned Philip Glass' music?
I am a fan, Glassworks is a classic.
Your poem speaks to me— how hard we all *try* and all the things we *do* to "become" ourselves. As if we aren't already enough...
"... born worthy... Listen. Remember."
Thank you for sharing your writing.
And I enjoyed the music you linked, a beat without tons of hype and with jazz influence.
Am I remembering correctly that somewhere on the forum you mentioned Philip Glass' music?
I am a fan, Glassworks is a classic.
#30
Recovery Journals / Re: Living As All of Me
Last post by TheBigBlue - February 01, 2026, 10:56:35 PMHannahOne, what you're describing makes a lot of sense. Being genuinely seen and met - real, mutual connection - that's gold. After something like that, the system often finally lets go enough for tiredness, sadness, or vulnerability to show up (even the little cold-bugs) - not because anything is wrong, but because something important happened.
Nobody deserves to be raised this way - honestly, wolves might be more caring than that. 🐺💛 A big, supportive hug for little HannahOne.
There's no need to push through this or make sense of it right now. Nothing to fix, nothing to do - just permission to rest, to slow down, to let things be exactly as they are. The world really will keep spinning (I know, sometimes I don't believe that either 🙂). You don't have to hold yourself together here. Here, we hold each other - quietly and steadily. 🤍
Nobody deserves to be raised this way - honestly, wolves might be more caring than that. 🐺💛 A big, supportive hug for little HannahOne.
There's no need to push through this or make sense of it right now. Nothing to fix, nothing to do - just permission to rest, to slow down, to let things be exactly as they are. The world really will keep spinning (I know, sometimes I don't believe that either 🙂). You don't have to hold yourself together here. Here, we hold each other - quietly and steadily. 🤍