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#21
Recovery Journals / Re: the next step
Last post by sanmagic7 - March 09, 2026, 03:43:02 PMTBB, thanks for your thoughtful post. it's amazing, isn't it, how easily/quickly we can go to a place we didn't expect, but it can be so difficult to leave it. as far as clarity and calm, i didn't recognize that, but thank you for doing so and mentioning it. that kind of thing seems quite automatic to me - get into a tight spot, figure out what needs to be done to get out of it and what's needed not to get into it again. i think i've had a lot of practice w/ that in my life, so i never recognized it as something to be recognized! i appreciate you pointing that out. 
thank you, as always, for your support, NK. much appreciated.
seems that for several weeks now that 'shift' that i've felt has taken hold and is doing its thing in a good way. i seem to have more energy, less exhaustion, and very much less feeling miserable. don't know exactly why or how this has happened, but it seems like something that hasn't happened before, not since i began feeling sick-y most of the time. this feels rare but good and i'm trying not to look at it as waiting for the other shoe to drop kind of thing, but just go with it as if it's simply my new now, rather than a tiny break from my old then.
therapy today. i may talk to my T about this, see if she has any thoughts. i know she's really scared of pushing me, so doesn't want to do too much. i also want to talk to her about my yearning to be taken care of.
thank you, as always, for your support, NK. much appreciated.
seems that for several weeks now that 'shift' that i've felt has taken hold and is doing its thing in a good way. i seem to have more energy, less exhaustion, and very much less feeling miserable. don't know exactly why or how this has happened, but it seems like something that hasn't happened before, not since i began feeling sick-y most of the time. this feels rare but good and i'm trying not to look at it as waiting for the other shoe to drop kind of thing, but just go with it as if it's simply my new now, rather than a tiny break from my old then.
therapy today. i may talk to my T about this, see if she has any thoughts. i know she's really scared of pushing me, so doesn't want to do too much. i also want to talk to her about my yearning to be taken care of.
#22
Recovery Journals / Re: Activating myself
Last post by sanmagic7 - March 09, 2026, 03:32:44 PMhope you had a lovely time w/ your friends, blueberry.
and
yes! yay! for your mastery over the dishwasher. well done! just fyi, i use mine for storage - have never liked the things, used them a couple times in the past but they just never did it for me. but i think it's wonderful that you are now able to use it. you've worked hard to be able to do that.
keep it up! love and hugs
and
yes! yay! for your mastery over the dishwasher. well done! just fyi, i use mine for storage - have never liked the things, used them a couple times in the past but they just never did it for me. but i think it's wonderful that you are now able to use it. you've worked hard to be able to do that.keep it up! love and hugs
#23
Recovery Journals / Re: Living As All of Me
Last post by NarcKiddo - March 09, 2026, 12:13:43 PMHannah, if you do Facebook I can, if you are interested, link you to a very supportive private art community page. It has just been set up by 2 tutors from an online site that I totally loved. The site owners overreached themselves and have gone bust which is a big shame as there were loads of wonderful tutorials on there that have gone to waste. But the tutors were supportive and responsive and the community is lovely. The tutors are not teaching on there, but they are offering feedback on work. Anyway, you could join and take a look even if you decide it's not for you and never share anything on there. Drop me a PM if that appeals and I will link you to the page.
I think you are doing really well with your goals. 
I think you are doing really well with your goals.
#24
Self-Help & Recovery / Re: Not being able to ask for ...
Last post by NarcKiddo - March 09, 2026, 12:05:48 PMIt's good that you're thinking it all through and noting things down here, too.
#25
Art / Re: Happy International Women'...
Last post by NarcKiddo - March 09, 2026, 12:01:24 PMLovely. Thank you for sharing.
#26
Physical Issues / Re: Weight fluctuations, body ...
Last post by Teddy bear - March 09, 2026, 08:53:41 AMHi 
thanks for replying,
After antipsychotic dose reduction I could loose a couple of kilos, that's inspiring.
Also adhering more to my low carb diet seems was helpful.
Feeling better, that's the most important 😊💚
thanks for replying,After antipsychotic dose reduction I could loose a couple of kilos, that's inspiring.
Also adhering more to my low carb diet seems was helpful.
Feeling better, that's the most important 😊💚
#28
Emotional Abuse / Re: Death by a Thousand Cuts
Last post by HannahOne - March 09, 2026, 02:23:28 AMHi Mia, late to the thread here, wanted to add that many of us what caused CPTSD was more a traumatic _environment_ than specific events. If it's one event, there's no discrete beginning and ending to the danger, we never get away from the people who did it, we live with them, so we don't recover from the trauma. Or it's hundreds and thousands of events, so again the trauma doesn't end. Either way, our nervous system stays on alert.
#29
Art / Happy International Women's Da...
Last post by Teddy bear - March 08, 2026, 06:49:30 PMHappy International Women's Day! 💐
Just postcards I've painted today
#30
Emotional Abuse / Re: Death by a Thousand Cuts
Last post by sanmagic7 - March 08, 2026, 05:18:39 PMQuote from: Blueberry on March 07, 2026, 09:58:31 PMEarly memories may often be traumatic, but it doesn't mean they ALL are.
i agree, mia. I have a wonderful memory of walking with my M to a store about 2 blocks from our house. I must've been quite young, maybe 3 or 4, and she bought me the most beautiful doll i'd ever seen. that was a happy memory, one that i can still picture, including the doll sitting on the shelf in the store. there's a trauma memory about that doll at a later point in my life, but having my M buy her for me, something i chose for myself, always has an inner smile to it.
i also have one from when i was younger, probably around 2. we had a record-making machine at the time, and my folks allowed me to record my voice. i still recall what i said, which was really nearly pre-verbal, and i can still hear my little girl voice saying my made-up words, and i remember feeling very grown up doing that.
so, yeah, not all family memories have to be traumatic. i think it's good to find some of these that made us smile when we were so very young, whether they were FOO-related or not. at least it's one thing we can look back on and feel something pos. about in our life. love and hugs