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#21
Recovery Journals / Re: the next step
Last post by TheBigBlue - March 07, 2026, 04:40:51 PMHi San,
I think you're handling this with a lot of clarity and calm. The way you're observing your own reactions, listening to what the lessening of the internal struggle is telling you, and still giving your T room to figure things out - that takes a lot of awareness.
Reading your post reminded me of one of my sessions, my T merely mentioned that there are other therapy modalities (like psychodynamic) in case I ever felt I needed something beyond CBT. My system instantly went into a full preverbal freeze - a 5-year-old hiding under the table feeling abandoned. For almost the entire 1 hr session I couldn't come out of it. She must have said a dozen times "I'm not abandoning you. I'm here. We have twenty sessions scheduled." But my nervous system just couldn't hear it (yet).
So reading how thoughtfully you're navigating this with your T really struck me. It sounds like you're both trying to move carefully and not overwhelm the system - which in itself is a good sign.
I'm glad you're paying attention to what actually helps your system settle. That feels like important information.
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I think you're handling this with a lot of clarity and calm. The way you're observing your own reactions, listening to what the lessening of the internal struggle is telling you, and still giving your T room to figure things out - that takes a lot of awareness.
Reading your post reminded me of one of my sessions, my T merely mentioned that there are other therapy modalities (like psychodynamic) in case I ever felt I needed something beyond CBT. My system instantly went into a full preverbal freeze - a 5-year-old hiding under the table feeling abandoned. For almost the entire 1 hr session I couldn't come out of it. She must have said a dozen times "I'm not abandoning you. I'm here. We have twenty sessions scheduled." But my nervous system just couldn't hear it (yet).
So reading how thoughtfully you're navigating this with your T really struck me. It sounds like you're both trying to move carefully and not overwhelm the system - which in itself is a good sign.
I'm glad you're paying attention to what actually helps your system settle. That feels like important information.
💛 #22
General Discussion / Re: Triggering event: our cat'...
Last post by TheBigBlue - March 07, 2026, 04:29:29 PM🐱 💛 🐾
#23
Recovery Journals / Re: the next step
Last post by sanmagic7 - March 07, 2026, 02:07:55 PMhannah1, thanks for your support. so, you think it's big enough to be a chasm? hmmm, will have to think on that. so very glad you've found ways to get taken care of. wonderful- it truly is different than doing it all yourself.
blueberry, thanks for the 'grr' on my behalf. loved it! i agree, i wouldn't have gone looking for a T is i didn't think i needed one. it's been too much of a struggle for too long. i want that extra level of help only a T can give.
TBB, thank you for that support. much appreciated.
thinking about this whole 'need' thing, maybe i don't 'need' help - no, i do. i was thinking maybe it's just a 'want' type of thing, but no. i can feel the struggle going on inside me, and how much it's lessened lately. that tells me something valuable, something i need to pay attention to for my own best welfare.
i believe this T got scared after i told her of my terrible aftermath from the 'attachment' statements. she mentioned she wasn't sure she could help me, and was afraid of causing such a neg. reaction in me again, and that's when she said ('cause i've referenced this forum so much) that maybe this place is enough. i really do think she was scared of doing harm - i don't believe she's worked w/ c-ptsd before, at least not to any great length - and certainly not w/ someone w/ alexithymia. it's a lot. but she's also not pushing me to go places i'm not ready for, and i'm grateful for that.
at any rate, we'll see.
blueberry, thanks for the 'grr' on my behalf. loved it! i agree, i wouldn't have gone looking for a T is i didn't think i needed one. it's been too much of a struggle for too long. i want that extra level of help only a T can give.
TBB, thank you for that support. much appreciated.
thinking about this whole 'need' thing, maybe i don't 'need' help - no, i do. i was thinking maybe it's just a 'want' type of thing, but no. i can feel the struggle going on inside me, and how much it's lessened lately. that tells me something valuable, something i need to pay attention to for my own best welfare.
i believe this T got scared after i told her of my terrible aftermath from the 'attachment' statements. she mentioned she wasn't sure she could help me, and was afraid of causing such a neg. reaction in me again, and that's when she said ('cause i've referenced this forum so much) that maybe this place is enough. i really do think she was scared of doing harm - i don't believe she's worked w/ c-ptsd before, at least not to any great length - and certainly not w/ someone w/ alexithymia. it's a lot. but she's also not pushing me to go places i'm not ready for, and i'm grateful for that.
at any rate, we'll see.
#24
General Discussion / Re: Triggering event: our cat'...
Last post by Teddy bear - March 07, 2026, 11:59:44 AMAnother update on the cat (Asya):
We got the test results today. They found an infection in her throat and possibly her lungs—which explains the cough and heavy breathing she's had recently. The vet prescribed a course of antibiotics.
The good news is we finally know the cause. Hopefully the treatment works and she'll be completely fine soon.
Right now she's lying on my lap, purring 🐱🐾
We got the test results today. They found an infection in her throat and possibly her lungs—which explains the cough and heavy breathing she's had recently. The vet prescribed a course of antibiotics.
The good news is we finally know the cause. Hopefully the treatment works and she'll be completely fine soon.
Right now she's lying on my lap, purring 🐱🐾
#25
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Seeking Support after Extr...
Last post by Hope67 - March 07, 2026, 09:16:23 AMHi Seeking Support,
I hope you are doing okay, and that March is maybe bringing you some sunshine. I very much relate to things you said, and I hope you can write things here as and when you want to - maybe over time, it will feel easier.
Hope
I hope you are doing okay, and that March is maybe bringing you some sunshine. I very much relate to things you said, and I hope you can write things here as and when you want to - maybe over time, it will feel easier.
Hope
#26
Personality Disorder (Perpetrator) / Re: Undiagnosed Autistic Mothe...
Last post by Whobuddy - March 06, 2026, 10:34:43 PM
#27
Recovery Journals / Re: the next step
Last post by TheBigBlue - March 06, 2026, 10:22:03 PMQuote from: Blueberry on March 06, 2026, 07:51:04 PMI don't agree with your new T's suggestion that this forum is enough for you. ... a T can add different support. ... add therapeutic interventions that none of us can.
#28
General Discussion / Re: Triggering event: our cat'...
Last post by Teddy bear - March 06, 2026, 08:57:37 PMAnd thank you, TheBigBlue and Kizzie!
Didn't noticed your replies initially
Didn't noticed your replies initially
#29
General Discussion / Re: Triggering event: our cat'...
Last post by Teddy bear - March 06, 2026, 08:53:13 PMQuote from: Blueberry on March 06, 2026, 07:53:26 PMGlad to hear your cat's doing better.
Thank you
#30
Personality Disorder (Perpetrator) / Re: Undiagnosed Autistic Mothe...
Last post by Blueberry - March 06, 2026, 08:05:27 PMHi Whobuddy Welcome back, I do remember your name. There are a few oldies from back then still on the forum.
I don't know about autism, hope others have more to contribute.
Welcome back, I do remember your name. There are a few oldies from back then still on the forum. I don't know about autism, hope others have more to contribute.