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#21
Ideas/Tools for Recovery / Re: FREE Excellent Online Yoga...
Last post by Teddy bear - Today at 05:27:00 PMVery interesting! Will try to join
#22
Recovery Journals / Re: Healing or Holding On?
Last post by Chart - Today at 05:09:02 PMDark.art.girl, Very happy to read your latest post. Sounds like lots of positive movement. Very cool!
I made a thread with links to the stuff that I'm doing, plus PRM. Here it is:
https://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?topic=17078.0
I made a thread with links to the stuff that I'm doing, plus PRM. Here it is:
https://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?topic=17078.0
#23
Ideas/Tools for Recovery / Re: FREE Excellent Online Yoga...
Last post by Chart - Today at 05:07:11 PMThanks Armee!!!
#24
Recovery Journals / Re: The tipping point…
Last post by Chart - Today at 04:57:18 PMThank you San, thank you Armee!!!
#26
Recovery Journals / Re: the next step
Last post by TheBigBlue - Today at 04:46:37 PM
here is to a "good enough T" #27
Recovery Journals / Re: the next step
Last post by sanmagic7 - Today at 04:40:05 PMthank you for that hug, armee.
TBB, i appreciate your hug. thanks.
thanks, SO. it's taken a lot of time and a lot of fails to finally get to know this, know myself well enough to know this. whew!
NK, i have, finally. yay! thank you!
hope, it went quite well. thanks for thinking of me.
armee, it did. i believe i have a winner. thanks.
so, the T thing - she's very soft, gentle, no arrogance, and i believe she's exactly what i need for now. i really do need to just stabilize right now, be heard, be supported. she's not versed in alexithymia, but told me she'd do some looking into it, make a plan that she'll let me know about for next week. that sounded good to me. she also said she'd let me take the lead on what i need, cuz she thought i've done a lot of work on myself, and being a therapist, too, i also have some insight into what someone in my position might need.
i'm still on the 6-mo. waiting list for the other T, who seems more energized, ready to attack some of the dissociative stuff, but i don't believe i'm ready for that yet. i had a meltdown in a group setting over the weekend cuz someone was kind to me and i've had that reaction before. for years, actually. it's that difficult for me to take kindness in - i gut-cry cuz i can actually feel it (which is unusual for me in the first place), something i've not had much of in my life, and this latest was from a man, something i've never had in my life. it was wonderful, actually, to give in to it, but the tears can't help but explode out of me.
another indication of how damaged/wounded i am.
so, yes, onward w/ this T. she told me she mostly works w/ physically disabled people, and is focused on helping her clients live true to their values. i don't know exactly what that might mean for me, cuz i don't really have a lot of overriding physical problems, like diabetes, heart condition, arthritis or the like, just my physical manifestations of emotional distress. so we'll see what that means for me. but i felt quite 'safe' with her, she didn't give off the vibe of 'i've been doing this for 20 yrs., there's nothing i haven't seen' which felt really good. i felt respected, and that was unusual, but very nice.
TBB, i appreciate your hug. thanks.
thanks, SO. it's taken a lot of time and a lot of fails to finally get to know this, know myself well enough to know this. whew!
NK, i have, finally. yay! thank you!
hope, it went quite well. thanks for thinking of me.
armee, it did. i believe i have a winner. thanks.
so, the T thing - she's very soft, gentle, no arrogance, and i believe she's exactly what i need for now. i really do need to just stabilize right now, be heard, be supported. she's not versed in alexithymia, but told me she'd do some looking into it, make a plan that she'll let me know about for next week. that sounded good to me. she also said she'd let me take the lead on what i need, cuz she thought i've done a lot of work on myself, and being a therapist, too, i also have some insight into what someone in my position might need.
i'm still on the 6-mo. waiting list for the other T, who seems more energized, ready to attack some of the dissociative stuff, but i don't believe i'm ready for that yet. i had a meltdown in a group setting over the weekend cuz someone was kind to me and i've had that reaction before. for years, actually. it's that difficult for me to take kindness in - i gut-cry cuz i can actually feel it (which is unusual for me in the first place), something i've not had much of in my life, and this latest was from a man, something i've never had in my life. it was wonderful, actually, to give in to it, but the tears can't help but explode out of me.
another indication of how damaged/wounded i am.
so, yes, onward w/ this T. she told me she mostly works w/ physically disabled people, and is focused on helping her clients live true to their values. i don't know exactly what that might mean for me, cuz i don't really have a lot of overriding physical problems, like diabetes, heart condition, arthritis or the like, just my physical manifestations of emotional distress. so we'll see what that means for me. but i felt quite 'safe' with her, she didn't give off the vibe of 'i've been doing this for 20 yrs., there's nothing i haven't seen' which felt really good. i felt respected, and that was unusual, but very nice.
#28
Recovery Journals / Re: Hope's Journal 2026
Last post by sanmagic7 - Today at 04:21:19 PMhope, somehow i like the idea that you're becoming more active in your dreams. i remember something similar, when i was able to say 'no!' to someone in my dreams. it felt like a big turning point, and i think it might have been. maybe some of those neural connections came together more appropriately, giving me access to an active voice for a change.
i hope this keeps up for you. love your progress. love and hugs
i hope this keeps up for you. love your progress. love and hugs
#29
Recovery Journals / Re: Living As All of Me
Last post by sanmagic7 - Today at 04:17:28 PMhannah1, i don't understand why water isn't good enough! i drink water for breakfast most days, don't have an appetite for anything else till later in the day. but water is so important for our bodies, our systems, so i don't understand the push to drink something else. maybe it's me.
i heard about a friend who wrote 'NO' on a card when they went to see their T. they couldn't get the word out of their mouth, but at the beginning of the session, they told their T they would hold that word up because they had trouble saying it. i thought it was some good problem-solving.
you'll get there, keep talking about it - maybe you can talk to your T about it in your next session? therapists are not god figures, not parental figures - they're meant to be guides to help you get from where you are to where you want to be. encouraging, but not necessarily pushy. i just feel bad you went thru this w/ your T. love and hugs
i heard about a friend who wrote 'NO' on a card when they went to see their T. they couldn't get the word out of their mouth, but at the beginning of the session, they told their T they would hold that word up because they had trouble saying it. i thought it was some good problem-solving.
you'll get there, keep talking about it - maybe you can talk to your T about it in your next session? therapists are not god figures, not parental figures - they're meant to be guides to help you get from where you are to where you want to be. encouraging, but not necessarily pushy. i just feel bad you went thru this w/ your T. love and hugs
#30
Recovery Journals / Re: Miscellaneous ramblings of...
Last post by NarcKiddo - Today at 04:10:41 PMThank you, everyone. Hope67 - nothing you wrote was over the top. It all felt spontaneously caring and empathic. It would for sure be nice if I could get hold of an anti-M spray!