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#91
Therapy / Re: Heart Opening Music
Last post by SenseOrgan - January 03, 2026, 12:49:45 PMChart, TheBigBlue
TheBigBlue
A friend had told me about this, but I didn't understand what she was telling me. It sure landed with the video and your explanation. What a beautiful moment. ❤️
Lamb - Gorecki [Extended]
TheBigBlue
A friend had told me about this, but I didn't understand what she was telling me. It sure landed with the video and your explanation. What a beautiful moment. ❤️
Lamb - Gorecki [Extended]
#92
Other / Psychosis as a result of traum...
Last post by Teddy bear - January 03, 2026, 12:33:24 PMHi everyone,
As I could see in the search results here, the topic of psychosis was already touched on this forum.
Also a well-known fact that psychosis can accompany trauma (c/PTSD with psychotic features).
But among the psychiatrists normally is a conservative viewpoint - psychosis -> schizophrenia -> life long medication with neuroleptics.
What is your experience, if you also had psychotic episodes, are you still on any medication or could taper it off and stop it?
My experience is a few attempts to taper aripiprazole (abilify) off and I couldn't get off, psychotic episodes happened as a result.
I understand that this forum is not about neuroleptics tapering, but probably general experience about it is ok to discuss.
Also psychosis was the most difficult and severe of symptoms I ever had, still looking for a solution (though probably it is also an endogenous disorder as well, as I understand it's almost impossible to find out - no tests, no ways to determine it currently. While I had a genetic test, and the result was like for healthy individuals, and only around 30% risk of depression for all mental health disorders)
Thank you
As I could see in the search results here, the topic of psychosis was already touched on this forum.
Also a well-known fact that psychosis can accompany trauma (c/PTSD with psychotic features).
But among the psychiatrists normally is a conservative viewpoint - psychosis -> schizophrenia -> life long medication with neuroleptics.
What is your experience, if you also had psychotic episodes, are you still on any medication or could taper it off and stop it?
My experience is a few attempts to taper aripiprazole (abilify) off and I couldn't get off, psychotic episodes happened as a result.
I understand that this forum is not about neuroleptics tapering, but probably general experience about it is ok to discuss.
Also psychosis was the most difficult and severe of symptoms I ever had, still looking for a solution (though probably it is also an endogenous disorder as well, as I understand it's almost impossible to find out - no tests, no ways to determine it currently. While I had a genetic test, and the result was like for healthy individuals, and only around 30% risk of depression for all mental health disorders)
Thank you
#93
Recovery Journals / Re: Post-Traumatic Growth Jour...
Last post by SenseOrgan - January 03, 2026, 12:27:48 PMDesert Flower
Thank you so much for your kindness. It's still hard for me to receive, but I appreciate what you said. Big hugs to you too!
HannahOne
Thank you!
NarcKiddo
Thank you! Also for your understanding and support at critical moments. I highly appreciate that.
I'd very much like to talk about CPTSD vs non-CPTSD aspects of our lives. With you and others. Around Christmas I seemed to have been drinking from a fire hose. I typed like mad, and couldn't even keep up. There are several topics in the pipeline I'm planning on posting about in the discussion section. The one you touched one is one of them. I'm really curious to hear people's thoughts around it.
Thank you so much for your kindness. It's still hard for me to receive, but I appreciate what you said. Big hugs to you too!
HannahOne
Thank you!
NarcKiddo
Thank you! Also for your understanding and support at critical moments. I highly appreciate that.
I'd very much like to talk about CPTSD vs non-CPTSD aspects of our lives. With you and others. Around Christmas I seemed to have been drinking from a fire hose. I typed like mad, and couldn't even keep up. There are several topics in the pipeline I'm planning on posting about in the discussion section. The one you touched one is one of them. I'm really curious to hear people's thoughts around it.
#94
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Hi everyone
Last post by NarcKiddo - January 03, 2026, 12:20:55 PMHello, and welcome, Teddy bear. I don't have an official diagnosis either and I don't care to get one although it would be possible here. My experience in any case makes me feel the diagnostic criteria are too rigid to be particularly helpful. Of course criteria are needed but my experiences are so subjective and change day to day, so the time of any diagnostic process would have a big impact on the conclusion reached.
I'm glad you found us and look forward to getting to know you a little more as you find your way around the forum.
I'm glad you found us and look forward to getting to know you a little more as you find your way around the forum.
#95
Recovery Journals / Re: Desert Flower's Recovery J...
Last post by SenseOrgan - January 03, 2026, 12:01:34 PMQuote from: Desert Flower on December 23, 2025, 07:16:29 PM...I feel my brain is recalibrating or something. Like the lid went off and I am now allowed to feel everything and now it's up to me to decide what is 'normal' and what is not, when to relax and when to panic, when there is no danger (most of the time, I'm told) and when there is (most of the time according to my trauma brain). So I'm very cautiously starting to feel what side I'm on at any given moment.
YES! The other side! Awe-some and wonder-ful indeed, like you wrote recently. It's so good to see the trauma dissolve in the light of awareness. What a ride this is! Thank you for sharing. You're making my day!
#96
Recovery Journals / Re: Living As All of Me
Last post by SenseOrgan - January 03, 2026, 10:32:00 AMThis clothes thing, absolutely amazing! I particularly like the playful aspect of it. Freedom to be who you are at any given moment. Lightness around it. Fun too? This is empowerment in practice. It's genius on many levels at the same time. Unapologetic. I think you have invented a therapy. Ever thought about guiding others with this? I'm really enjoying the inner strength and dignity that shines through your writing! Reading about your traumatic history makes that all the more impressive.
I think I also recognize "being strong and independent" as a survival strategy. I know from experience that's incredibly lonely and challenging to address. It took a complete collapse and some ontological shocks for that penny to drop for me. You are also welcome when you are not strong, or if you need help or support yourself. That is not a crime, and if there's shame around it, that too is welcome. It's all human. It corrodes isolation and loneliness to share. You know all of this already. No advice. An ongoing invitation if this resonates.
I'm so happy to hear you got such good news from the doc, despite the panic that kicked in!
I think I also recognize "being strong and independent" as a survival strategy. I know from experience that's incredibly lonely and challenging to address. It took a complete collapse and some ontological shocks for that penny to drop for me. You are also welcome when you are not strong, or if you need help or support yourself. That is not a crime, and if there's shame around it, that too is welcome. It's all human. It corrodes isolation and loneliness to share. You know all of this already. No advice. An ongoing invitation if this resonates.
I'm so happy to hear you got such good news from the doc, despite the panic that kicked in!
#97
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Hi everyone
Last post by Teddy bear - January 03, 2026, 10:08:05 AMThank you very much, Chart and SenseOrgan
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#98
Please Introduce Yourself Here / Re: Hi everyone
Last post by SenseOrgan - January 03, 2026, 09:38:15 AMWelcome here and happy new year Teddy bear! 
I presume most people here don't have an official CPTSD diagnosis either, since it's not in the DSM. Kizzie [the founder of this forum] and a lot of others published a Guide for Healthcare Professionals to bridge this gap between our experience and what they know about CPTSD. People who don't suffer from CPTSD usually don't end up posting on this forum. Don't worry about it. You're welcome here, and you can find a lot of recognition and support here.
I presume most people here don't have an official CPTSD diagnosis either, since it's not in the DSM. Kizzie [the founder of this forum] and a lot of others published a Guide for Healthcare Professionals to bridge this gap between our experience and what they know about CPTSD. People who don't suffer from CPTSD usually don't end up posting on this forum. Don't worry about it. You're welcome here, and you can find a lot of recognition and support here.
#99
Recovery Journals / Re: Ran's journey
Last post by Ran - January 02, 2026, 10:44:54 PMSo far the things that have helped me
- inner child work (creating routines, creativity, storytelling);
- having supportive person in my life;
I need to do a lot more research, but these are the ways to heal I have so far.
I have huge abandonment fear and getting attached to people, so it's something I need to deal with.
Today I was sad about not being made a mod in a server as I've been mod in many other their servers, but there are new people and they do things differently. I shouldn't be like this I mean I'm an adult and they bunch of teenagers and people who are young adult. I should be able to be over it, but if they chat in their private chatrooms, then it makes me feels very much exluded. I start thinking thkngs like that no one needs me. I cried even. I feel ashamed of crying over something like this. I guess it's about inclusivity, community, friend group, feeling like you belong and are important and useful, rather than just being there and existing in a space.
- inner child work (creating routines, creativity, storytelling);
- having supportive person in my life;
I need to do a lot more research, but these are the ways to heal I have so far.
I have huge abandonment fear and getting attached to people, so it's something I need to deal with.
Today I was sad about not being made a mod in a server as I've been mod in many other their servers, but there are new people and they do things differently. I shouldn't be like this I mean I'm an adult and they bunch of teenagers and people who are young adult. I should be able to be over it, but if they chat in their private chatrooms, then it makes me feels very much exluded. I start thinking thkngs like that no one needs me. I cried even. I feel ashamed of crying over something like this. I guess it's about inclusivity, community, friend group, feeling like you belong and are important and useful, rather than just being there and existing in a space.
#100
General Discussion / Re: Website or book recommenda...
Last post by Chart - January 02, 2026, 08:50:09 PMHi EB, perhaps you could suggest to your partner to have a look at this forum. It is open to everyone to read. To post your need to register, but just reading through some of the recovery journals might give your partner a deeper insight into what Cptsd is and how different people are currently coping with it.
This is an interesting thread that seems applicable:
https://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?topic=13689.0
All the best, chart
This is an interesting thread that seems applicable:
https://www.cptsd.org/forum/index.php?topic=13689.0
All the best, chart