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#11
Sleep Issues / Night terrors and lucid dreami...
Last post by GoSlash27 - April 25, 2024, 06:49:31 PMAll,
This is how I discovered how to turn night terrors to my advantage.
I had a spate of night terrors a few years ago. They were so bad that I was losing enough sleep for it to be a problem. So in my typical nerd fashion I began to analyze what was going on. The sleep paralysis was totally normal. It's just how my body protects itself from injury while in REM sleep. What I was 'hearing' was just an auditory hallucination. This gave rise to visual hallucinations, all of which were scaring me.
The problem was that my conscious mind was still active at a point where it was not supposed to be. Once I convinced myself that it was safe to fall asleep instead of trying to fight my way to wakefulness, I did.
I felt a falling sensation and immediately 'woke up' in my own bed. The first question that came to mind was 'am I really awake right now, or is this a dream?'. Stepping into the hallway immediately answered that question. This was not my house. I was dreaming. I was fully conscious of the fact that I was dreaming.
It did not occur to me at that point that I had 100% control over the dream itself, but I remember every moment of that dream as fully as any waking moment.
This was fascinating to me! So I resolved to try it again, and it worked that time too. That dream I actually controlled, which was amazing! I could change any aspect of the dream I wished, I could fly, whatever.
I soon came to welcome the night terrors (later the precursor hallucinations themselves) as my gateway to lucid dreams. I developed habits to establish whether I was dreaming or not. Look out the window to check the scenery. step out of the bedroom and look around. Read a book and see if the text changes.
That 'changing text' method amused me so much once that I kept reading the changing text just to see what it would say next. It said 'please stop doing that'.
There was an intelligence on the other side of the changing text. I soon found out that I could communicate *directly* with my own subconscious through asking questions and reading the responses in the text.
I have not developed the ability to lucid dream at will and haven't had many night terrors lately. But now I look forward to them. I plan on putting that direct communication with my own subconscious to use as I work my way through this.
So this is my good news for anyone who has trouble with night terrors. For me they are the gateway to lucid dreams and I bet they are for you as well.
Best,
-Slashy
This is how I discovered how to turn night terrors to my advantage.
I had a spate of night terrors a few years ago. They were so bad that I was losing enough sleep for it to be a problem. So in my typical nerd fashion I began to analyze what was going on. The sleep paralysis was totally normal. It's just how my body protects itself from injury while in REM sleep. What I was 'hearing' was just an auditory hallucination. This gave rise to visual hallucinations, all of which were scaring me.
The problem was that my conscious mind was still active at a point where it was not supposed to be. Once I convinced myself that it was safe to fall asleep instead of trying to fight my way to wakefulness, I did.
I felt a falling sensation and immediately 'woke up' in my own bed. The first question that came to mind was 'am I really awake right now, or is this a dream?'. Stepping into the hallway immediately answered that question. This was not my house. I was dreaming. I was fully conscious of the fact that I was dreaming.
It did not occur to me at that point that I had 100% control over the dream itself, but I remember every moment of that dream as fully as any waking moment.
This was fascinating to me! So I resolved to try it again, and it worked that time too. That dream I actually controlled, which was amazing! I could change any aspect of the dream I wished, I could fly, whatever.
I soon came to welcome the night terrors (later the precursor hallucinations themselves) as my gateway to lucid dreams. I developed habits to establish whether I was dreaming or not. Look out the window to check the scenery. step out of the bedroom and look around. Read a book and see if the text changes.
That 'changing text' method amused me so much once that I kept reading the changing text just to see what it would say next. It said 'please stop doing that'.
There was an intelligence on the other side of the changing text. I soon found out that I could communicate *directly* with my own subconscious through asking questions and reading the responses in the text.I have not developed the ability to lucid dream at will and haven't had many night terrors lately. But now I look forward to them. I plan on putting that direct communication with my own subconscious to use as I work my way through this.
So this is my good news for anyone who has trouble with night terrors. For me they are the gateway to lucid dreams and I bet they are for you as well.
Best,
-Slashy
#12
Recovery Journals / Re: Hope's Journal 2024
Last post by GoSlash27 - April 25, 2024, 06:27:09 PMHope67,
Yes ma'am! Your night terrors are a lot like mine. That sense that somebody or something is coming to kill you. You're paralyzed. You can't move, can't scream, you're fighting to wake up. Eventually you manage to fight your way back to terrified wakefulness and... Nothing.
I do have some good news for you. I'm going to post it under the 'sleeping disorders' subsection because it's rather long.
Best,
-Slashy
Yes ma'am! Your night terrors are a lot like mine. That sense that somebody or something is coming to kill you. You're paralyzed. You can't move, can't scream, you're fighting to wake up. Eventually you manage to fight your way back to terrified wakefulness and... Nothing.
I do have some good news for you. I'm going to post it under the 'sleeping disorders' subsection because it's rather long.
Best,
-Slashy
#13
Recovery Journals / Re: Hope's Journal 2024
Last post by Hope67 - April 25, 2024, 06:19:45 PMThank you so much NarcKiddo - I must admit I am feeling a bit 'hyper' now - I think I'll have to step away from the forum for a bit, as I think I've perhaps triggered myself a bit - but it's ok. I'll be back! I just feel as if I've been writing things in other people's journals and I don't feel as if I'm in control of myself - so therefore might be triggered!
I appreciate your group hug - thank you
I'm going to take it easy this evening and hopefully enjoy watching some TV that is calming. I think I need to do that. (I apologise if I've written anything in anyone's journal that doesn't make sense - I normally try to think more carefully - and I was writing quicker than I should have).
Hope
I appreciate your group hug - thank you
I'm going to take it easy this evening and hopefully enjoy watching some TV that is calming. I think I need to do that. (I apologise if I've written anything in anyone's journal that doesn't make sense - I normally try to think more carefully - and I was writing quicker than I should have).
Hope
#14
Recovery Journals / Re: Miscellaneous ramblings of...
Last post by Kizzie - April 25, 2024, 06:17:57 PMOn no NK, I am so sorry to hear you have been so unwell! I can't imagine being ill and having the furnace go and tradespeople traipsing through the house who don't seem to agree on anything. I know it isn't much but and I will keep my fingers crossed that you will make your cruise.
and I will keep my fingers crossed that you will make your cruise. #15
Recovery Journals / Re: My Journal - As I'm trying...
Last post by Hope67 - April 25, 2024, 06:17:04 PMHi BecomingMe,
I also wanted to wish you support with the work you're doing, connecting to your 8 year old. I related to what you said about feeling a constriction or blockage in the throat area.
I echo what Papa Coco said, about sending you as much strength and support through the airwaves.
Hope
I also wanted to wish you support with the work you're doing, connecting to your 8 year old. I related to what you said about feeling a constriction or blockage in the throat area.
I echo what Papa Coco said, about sending you as much strength and support through the airwaves.
Hope
#16
Recovery Journals / Re: Hope's Journal 2024
Last post by NarcKiddo - April 25, 2024, 06:16:09 PM
#17
Recovery Journals / Re: The ramblings of an abused...
Last post by Hope67 - April 25, 2024, 06:13:35 PMQuote from: GoSlash27 on April 19, 2024, 02:54:18 PMWhen someone is abused or neglected as a child, they often grow up to become the person that they wish they had in *their* life. Someone who is kind and caring. Someone who will befriend them and listen. Someone who will help.
Sadly, in my experience most people that are that way had similar experiences as children and we grow to recognize and gravitate toward each other.
Hi Slashy,
Wow, this is really something that I related to. Gravitating towards people on similar paths, or with similar experiences. You wrote the word 'sadly' - do you feel sad that it's like that? I am grateful that we can find people with similar paths - as it's supportive - maybe it might break a chain somehow. (Apologies, I feel like I'm actually waffling a bit - not sure of what I'm saying). Please disregard anything. I just wanted to come into your Journal, and thank you for asking me a question (in my journal) about my night terrors, and I saw what you wrote, and wanted to comment here.
Hope
#18
Frustrated? Set Backs? / Re: Hard free-fall
Last post by Kizzie - April 25, 2024, 06:12:28 PMHey Woodsgnome, I'm sorry to hear that you're not doing well at the moment. It's so difficult when you have been doing well to then have a setback. You do have friends here that have come to know you over many years like BB and I so I hope you don't feel completely alone.
I hope a group hug is OK
I hope a group hug is OK
#19
Recovery Journals / Re: My journey so far
Last post by Hope67 - April 25, 2024, 06:06:54 PMHi Little2Nothing,
I also think that music is so powerful in how it affects our emotions, and you related to a sense of mourning, and that definitely takes time. I hope that tomorrow is a kinder day, whatever happens.
Hope
I also think that music is so powerful in how it affects our emotions, and you related to a sense of mourning, and that definitely takes time. I hope that tomorrow is a kinder day, whatever happens.
Hope
#20
Recovery Journals / Re: Miscellaneous ramblings of...
Last post by Hope67 - April 25, 2024, 06:04:19 PMDear NarcKiddo,
I am so sorry to hear that you're not feeling well - and also that you're having those difficulties with the boiler and the workpeople coming round and bothering you like that. I really hope you are able to get some rest to be able to recuperate well. Finger's crossed that you'll feel better in time to do the things you need to do for your Cruise preparation. Sending you a hug
Hope
I am so sorry to hear that you're not feeling well - and also that you're having those difficulties with the boiler and the workpeople coming round and bothering you like that. I really hope you are able to get some rest to be able to recuperate well. Finger's crossed that you'll feel better in time to do the things you need to do for your Cruise preparation. Sending you a hug
Hope