Learning to heal, Larry's journey

[sanmagic7]

hi, larry,

in my experience, if my innards are telling me something is not right or needs to be changed, they're usually correct.  i tell my D, 'go with your gut'.  i hope you find the answers you're looking for.  love and hugs

[dollyvee]

Hi Larry,

If it works for you, a lot of therapists now are doing skype/zoom sessions post-covid. It might not be for you but could also open up the possibility of a t who is a better fit.

dolly

[Larry]

thank you dolly,    it is just hard,   i really don't want my wife to know,  and she is home all the time.    it is so hard to try to work everything out. 

[dollyvee]

Hi Larry,

This stuff is really hard, and it's also really hard to ask for what we need from someone we care about when you are used to never being able to do that growing up and be supported. I think that asking your wife to have the house alone while you talk about private things is reasonable request to make. You don't have to share stuff in therapy with your wife until you're ready to do so. If she's been supporting you with quitting drinking, she sounds like she would be willing to support you with this too. It's hard to talk with her about that maybe but you also deserve to help yourself get better. It's ok to have those needs.

Sending you support,
dolly

[Armee]

There are solutions when you are ready for them, Larry. Until then sending lots of support to figure out how to move forward and be ok. 

[Larry]

I really appreciate everyone here.    today was good.   it always helps when people are nice to me.  sometimes i feel like i don't deserve this.  but i am thankful.    i am sorry i have been a little negative.   i just want to be happy.    doesn't seem like to much to ask for.    i don't know why it is so hard sometimes

[rainydiary]

Hi Larry, I've been in a "negative" place of late too and wish we could turn this off because it is exhausting.  I am glad you are here sharing your experiences as it helps me remember I am not alone.

[Larry]

  thank you rainy

[Larry]

I haven't been here much,  i miss everyone,    i want to support everyone,  you have all been so helpful and supportive for me.   it is just painful sometimes to try to even think of everything going on.    i hope everyone is doing well.   

[Armee]

 

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
You've been helpful and supportive for me too, and I wanted to thank you for that - I have appreciated it when you've popped by in my journal, and I hope you're doing ok today.  Sending you a hug and some sunshine, if that's ok   

I hope that wasn't too much, just take them on a different day, if they're too much. 

Hope 

[dollyvee]

Hi Larry,

Hope you're doing well Larry 

This stuff is painful to get through, but I'm sure you'll get there.

dolly

[sanmagic7]

i agree with everyone, larry.  sometimes it's just as hard to do something beneficial as to stop doing something that's harmful.  you'll know when it's time to do either or both.  love and hugs

[rainydiary]

 

[Larry]

  thank you,