Learning to heal, Larry's journey

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
I know you have your appointment coming up in a couple of days, and hope that it goes ok.
 
Hope 

[Armee]

Thinking of you Larry, between father's day and your appointment tomorrow. Hang in there.   

[Larry]

I appreciate all of you !   I was prescribed prozac and hydroxyzine.   I threw the prozac away,   i'm not ready for that.   I have been doing mostly good, I still get lonely and feel like i don't have friends.   just trying to be good to myself.   

[sanmagic7]

larry, i respect your choices about meds.  i also think it may be a good idea to tell your T about it, just in case there's something, some other reason behind it.  just a thought.  i haven't taken all my meds i've been prescribed, but i've found it helpful to let the doc/therapist know why.  i've gotten some good options from them.

keep going - you're doing really well.  good step!  love and hugs

[Larry]

thank you sanmagic !    I have a session tuesday,  might have to reschedule due to work......

[Armee]

 

I hope it goes well today, if you are able to go. I have my therapy today too. I find it both helpful and painful and anxiety-inducing. Love/hate relationship with therapy for sure.

I hope the medication you chose to take helps and if not that you can go back and adjust it with the prescribing doctor. From what I've read it takes awhile to get the right mix and match for each individual.

I'm not too familiar with prozac...what made you not want to take that one?

[Larry]

i don't know ,  i think i just don't want to feel like i need meds to be normal?   also some side effects,  which i am probably blowing out of pproportion.   I missed my session,   not sure when i can get another appointment.    I might call tomorrow.   I felt ok today,  spent some time with my wife,  which was nice.   i would really like to find some friends,  i just don't know where to begin.

[Hope67]

Hi Larry,
sorry to hear you've experienced some side-effects - maybe they will go away after a while?  Or maybe they could try another type of meds?  I hope you're able to get another appointment sometime soon.  Glad to hear you enjoyed some time with your wife. 

I hope that things are going ok for you this week so far.  However they're going, I hope you're doing ok.
Hope 

[Larry]

thank you hope,...   I am doing ok,   my wife hasn't been drinking the last few days,   things almost seem normal.   i am not working today,  going to the gym and maybe the beach.   i don't have anything scheduled with my therapist,  not sure what to do.   i only get to see her every 3 weeks,  doesn't seem like enough.   i do have an appointment soon woth the doctor that prescribed prozac,   might cancel that.

[Armee]

I agree every three weeks isn't ideal and would leave me feeling very unsettled in between. 

[Larry]

coming up on my busiest time of year a work,   maybe in 3 or 4 weeks i might make another attempt at therapy.   things have been ok.   i had 6 drinks last night,   not to bad,   and i do have days when i don't drink at all.   i really want to focus on getting healthier,  i have been eating ok,  i really need to eat more,   i have beeen working a lot,  so onlky making it to the 1 or 2 times a week.   i like being busy,   keeps me occupied and more present.

[Larry]

i haven't had a session in 4 or 5  weeks,  next one is aug 7th,   i hope i can make it,   i have been really frustrated with some co workers.
it hurts when they act like a frined and then take advantage of you.   I had a few good days last week,  it felt nice,   trying to get through today.   today is day 2 again w/o alcohol.  i haven't been over drinking,  and i go 2 or 3 days without,  but i really want to stop for a month.   

[sanmagic7]

sounds like a good goal, larry.  best to you with that.  love and hugs

[Armee]

I'll be sending along some support to you in your next session, if you go, and in abstaining from alcohol for 30 days. I agree with San, they are good goals you've set. 

[rainydiary]

Best wishes Larry.