Hating my scars again

[droopsnoot]

I just hit five months clean from SH. This isn't the longest I've ever gone but, I am still very happy about it.

However, I just made it to the point where I am absolutely disgusted by my scars. It's such a weird feeling. When I am actively harming or shortly after, I always love how the wounds look and feel more content looking at them. I know that hating the scars means that I have made it past the point of wanting to hurt myself and having a strong desire to continue my streak which is awesome but, simultaneously hating my body kinda ruins the experience. I struggle to see a reality where I can accept my scars AND want to remain clean.

I'm sure I'll get there eventually. If anybody else experiences this or anything similar, I would love to hear about your experience

[Kizzie]

Well done Droopsnoot, you should be proud of yourself!         

[Armee]