Hating my scars again

[droopsnoot]

I just hit five months clean from SH. This isn't the longest I've ever gone but, I am still very happy about it.

However, I just made it to the point where I am absolutely disgusted by my scars. It's such a weird feeling. When I am actively harming or shortly after, I always love how the wounds look and feel more content looking at them. I know that hating the scars means that I have made it past the point of wanting to hurt myself and having a strong desire to continue my streak which is awesome but, simultaneously hating my body kinda ruins the experience. I struggle to see a reality where I can accept my scars AND want to remain clean.

I'm sure I'll get there eventually. If anybody else experiences this or anything similar, I would love to hear about your experience

[Kizzie]

Well done Droopsnoot, you should be proud of yourself!         

[Armee]

 

[sanmagic7]

well done, droopsnoot!  keep up the good work!

my eldest daughter was doing SH for a while, and one particular scar was a few inches below her neck, on her chest.  she eventually got a tattoo to cover it.  i've seen others use tattoos for scars as well, and i also considered one to cover a surgical scar.  don't know if you're into them or not, but it's one way i've seen people deal with that particular aftermath.   

[Kizzie]