Dear Colleagues

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Dear "Colleagues,"

I haven't seen you in almost a year and yet each day I feel as if I will come around a corner and there you will be.

Lying.

Cheating.

Gossiping.

Disrespecting.

Gaslighting.

Maintaining your power.

Making fun of students.

You were horrible to me but I really cannot forgive how you laughed at and made fun of students.  I wish they had better.

I feel a deep need to understand why you treated me so low.  I made a lot of mistakes and exerted a lot of effort trying to please you and do my job the best I could.

Yet you looked down on me from day 1.  Ignored me, went behind my behind my back, acted like I was an alien. 

I want to know that you feel badly for what you did.  I doubt you even give me a second thought because I am no longer there challenging you.

I wish I could leave behind the hurt I feel from my time being your "colleague."