Avoided collapse

[Blueberry]

Yesterday I realised I'd been on the brink of collapse again. BUT I caught myself and took steps to not collapse. Today I told my occupational therapist but also added he might not agree with me on the impending collapse (he tries to help me see the positive that I am managing - which is good because within a week I always manage something). He agreed with me though that over the past few weeks it had looked like brink-of-collapse.

Now I've avoided that. Or averted is maybe more appropriate.  

[Hope67]

Dear Blueberry,
I am very glad to hear that you have realised, caught yourself, and took steps to not collapse.  That is brilliant!    You've averted it.  That's really great 

Enjoying being able to celebrate that alongside you!    
Hope 

[Cascade]

Way to go, Blueberry!  I celebrate your strength with you.  
Your own progress and posting it here for all to see gives me hope that healing is, indeed, possible.

[NarcKiddo]

That was such a lovely post to read, Blueberry.   

[woodsgnome]

Blueberry ... whatever you choose to call the action, the outcome stems from your self-initiative and realization that being 'on the edge' no longer must result wit a dangerous plunge into self-loating.

May you enjoy the view -- from on top of the edge, and not bruised and disappointed yet again. You're in new territory, and you got here yourself! Congratulations     
 

[Blueberry]

Thank you all for your words and cheers      

[Kizzie]

Wonderful to hear this BB     

[Blueberry]

Thank you Kizzie

Continuing today too because I just noticed half an hour ago that I don't have much energy left this evening. Vacuuming is very overdue, but it's going to wait till tomorrow or Saturday so I have enough energy for choir practice tonight. Have to get to choir practice too and sort my music sheets before I go (chaos reigns in that file). Such tiny things can be too much. But I noticed and set my priorities

[Kizzie]

And that's how we have to roll sometimes isn't it BB?  Knowing how much we can accomplish without overstressing ourselves because there is a often a stream of hot lava trauma running in the background of our inner selves. It's hard to accept sometimes I find (that I must slow down or take breaks), because I am a perfectionist and of course I want to do everything and do it well. Now that I am 67, however, in addition to the trauma popping up I have normal age related and trauma induced physical ailments popping up.  I have no choice but to manage that, much like I've learned to do with my trauma, just like you. Bravo to us!