I hope its not a bad idea

[Hope67]

Hi John,
Glad to hear that your session went well.  I know you have some reservations about the fact that she is not so experienced, but hopefully she will have supervision from a more experienced person to help as well.  Hope that the next session goes well too - but whatever happens, you can negotiate your way through it - wishing you the best in maneuvering through the storm.  We are alongside you - if that's helpful to think of that.  If not, please disregard.  (Apologies as I feel a bit clunky with my writing).
Hope 

[PandaQueen]

Hi John I have just read through your story and many aspects seem similar to my experience. My Father was a sociopath (not just a turn of phrase, an actual sociopath) who delighted in cruelty, physically and mentally. My Mum wasn't much better and routinely joined in or ignored his brutality altogether. Just before I left home, I was set up by people I thought were my best friends, locked in a room and raped multiple times. I too thought I had worked through it, somehow dragged myself through university and eventually got married to my amazing husband and we have 2 girls. I thought I was doing OK but I have recently ended an 8 year friendship with someone I thought was a true friend, only to realise she was a manipulative narcissist. Now I distrust everyone. I don't leave my house much and can't be around 'normal' people. My CPTSD makes me act oddly, and it is too personal an issue to explain when you don't trust people, it just makes me vulnerable to attack as i found out from my so-called friend. So here I am! I am thinking of going back to therapy again, but tbh I am not hopeful. Please contact me if you feel it would help, I think just being in touch with someone who is going through a similar thing could be a comfort. Sorry for long post and thanks for reading

[dollyvee]

Hi John,

A belated welcome to the forum    I hope you find what you need here.

I just wanted to say that you're reasonable in your thinking to want someone more experienced in trauma therapy for your storm. This might be something you could bring up with her, and if she's a good therapist, I think she'll confirm your beliefs that maybe you do need someone more experienced if she feels like she can't handle it. You are within your rights to try different therapists until you find one that "feels" best.

Sending you support,
dolly

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