Old wound - leaving home

[Boatsetsailrose]

Have been asked by my house mate of 2.5 yrs to leave - her partner moved in and they want the house to selves - it's understandable and has changed so much here I'm not comfortable -
Flashbacked today to leaving home - clearing my stuff and leaving mother at the door said bye like I was going down the shop -
I'm 43 and fed up with having 'to move on again ' .
When I look around
I feel like everyone has stability - family - friends and a happy life
But I know this is not true -
Today when I cleared my stuff out I put some of it on the wall outside and a polish man was taking some things - he saw me and looked embarrassed and I assured him
In that moment it made me think of how many are worse off than me
The truth is I'm scared  - and also worried about who I may be sharing with at the next place --
As I work as a nurse busy environment when I'm home I need to spend signif time alone to de stress -
Then I thought about getting a studio so I can just live alone but I know that's not good for me - loneliness is not good it brings up the ' in so dysfunctional

[SoftKitty]

Hi,

I'm sorry you're having to deal with moving again. It sounds as though it's brought up a lot of past memories as well as painful feelings of loss (of stability, of relationships... of a place to call 'home'), which is so understandable.

It's okay to feel these things. It's okay not to feel guilty about feeling this loss.

I hope you're able to find 'home', both inside you and externally, and that you can feel peaceful.

[Boatsetsailrose]

Thank you soft kitty