Scared

[nemo185]

Hi all,
New here and also new to the CPTSD diagnosis.
Kinda scared about what happens next.

I was in gen counselling on and off since 11. Last lot actually helped somewhat - aged 24.
Been on meds for the past 3 years, which help to a certain extent. They keep me in work at least.
I was in CBT until last week, to work through the continuous cycle of negative thinking and associated behaviours.
Now my CBT counsellor says I have complex PTSD.
Never heard of it - researched it (as you do) - and voila!
Turns out this is the deal. This is me. Everything I read fits exactly. Quite a strange experience.
Anyway, currently awaiting my community MH team assessment and whatever treatment they suggest.
Love talking about my past over and over to various different health profs *rolls eyes*.
Still... positive about the prospect of recovery.

Just glad to have found this forum.
Hope you all are well.

Nemo x

[mourningdove]

Hi Nemo!

Sorry you are feeling scared. I hope your expanding knowledge about C-PTSD will open up new avenues for healing.

Welcome 

[nemo185]

Thank you MourningDove
Much appreciated x

[Three Roses]

Hello and welcome! This forum is awesome - I love the support everyone gives.

http://pete-walker.com/index.htm has great info. His book, "Complex PTSD: From Surviving To Thriving" was literally life changing for me. Bessel van Der Kolk's book, "The Body Keeps The Score", is available online to listen to https://youtu.be/Q9Nlrtq4mi4 It is long but well worth the time! So much info on different therapies, and how to make sure you're getting help that is lasting.

Glad you're here!

[nemo185]

Thank you Three Roses
I think the more information the better at the moment. It's a little daunting not knowing.
Anticipating the future has always been a struggle for me because I tend to assume at the worst possible outcomes. Trying to keep positive.

Thanks again x

[Kizzie]

Hi and a very warm welcome Nemo     You are definitely in good company here and I hope that helps with feeling scared, even if just a bit.

Glad you found your way here 

[nemo185]

Thank you Kizzie
Trying to be brave. It's good knowing there is support other than through weekly sessions with a professional out there.
x