Hope's Journal 2026

[SenseOrgan]

BUT, I was pleased to be able to consider the theme whilst doing those language exercises/lessons.  It made me think about it.  Consider it, and most likely process some things.  So I was grateful for the opportunity to do that.

You're taking multi tasking to the next level! Sorry about the out of sorts stuff. Hope it clears up soon. 

[sanmagic7]

i've just been reading about the heat wave over there, and after having lived in the mex. desert for so long, i hope you can stay cool, keep hydrated, and take in electrolytes if you're losing too much moisture from sweating.  and, yes, i think an ice cream party would be perfect!  but seriously, i've been treated for heat exhaustion more than once, and it isn't fun.  i don't want that to happen to anyone where you are.

just before i moved back here, we had a heat wave on the west coast that nearly did me in.  we had no a/c, no fans (luckily a friend drove 50 miles to take us to a store that still had some), and for a day and a half i had to take showers in my clothes and wear ice packs on my head and heart.  just being triggered by it all, i guess.  love and hugs

[Hope67]

Hi Marcine, I really appreciate hearing your thoughts about 'Goodbyes' and mentioning Hawaii.  Really interesting.   

Hi Zen_Racer, Thank you so much - I loved the nice cool air from the shade in the woods, and the hug is lovely too - thank you 

Hi Sense Organ,  Thank you 

Hi SanMagic, I felt your care and your concern regarding the heatwave - thank you so much     I am really doing my best not to overdo stuff, and to have some electrolites on hand - not used them yet, but I think I might need them in the coming days, as it does seem to be really hotting up.  I've been resorting to going to places that have air conditioning, which has helped.  Unfortunately I don't have air conditioning at home.  But keeping the blinds closed in the daytime, and opening windows at night. 

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23rd June 2026
That 'out of sorts' feeling has thankfully gone away.  I do feel okay currently.  Just trying to pace stuff, and keep as cool as possible in this heatwave. 

[Hope67]

26th June 2026
Wow, just writing that date - I've just realised it's one of my favourite kind of dates - 26 at the beginning and at the end... I love those!!! 

I am feeling very hot right now - the heatwave is still here - I'm hoping it might cool off over the weekend.  It was slightly better than yesterday, but not much.  I don't like hot weather really. 

I have been able to achieve some things this week that I hadn't managed to do for quite some time - I was going to mention what they are, but now I feel a bit shy, and don't want to go into details about it - suffice to say that I managed to handle a situation that had caused me difficulties in the past - I have no idea why I don't seem to be able to just write what it is.  Interesting...  Anyway.

I am pleased that I did it.

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I am currently reading several books - this is a pattern I have done since a child, I tend to dip into whichever book I feel like reading at any particular time, and depending on my feelings.  But sometimes I think that it then overwhelms my system - and I am working at calming my system - so I'm thinking about whether I need to change this.  But somehow at this moment, I am glad to be reading several books, and enjoying all of them.

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I think I am going to try my best to relax on this weekend - because I do think that I've been over-stimulating myself in various ways, so that is what I'm going to try to do.

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okay, I've managed to think about what I want to say about the thing I wanted to mention at the beginning.  Basically, I managed to get rid of an object that had a massive emotional significance connected to my M (whom I am estranged from), and it was something I'd tried to do previously - but historically was frozen around it - and it involved quite a lot of interaction with my younger parts (who were frightened about the potential result of making that change) - BUT, I was able to do it, and also able to communicate and soothe my younger parts.  People helped me with this process, and I am grateful to them for that     I don't want to write the specifics here of what the object was, as I feel it might be identifying (and I'm still mindful that I have some concerned parts who are still processing this change).

However, I can say that the major feeling has been one of FREEDOM -      so I'm celebrating that!!!

[Marcine]

Hi Hope, yay for your freedom!

I can empathize with the complexity and challenges of letting go of emotionally-charged objects. It sounds like you honored your process, asked for and received help, encountered fear, soothed yourself, and made the right choice for you. Definitely worth celebrating!

Regarding your multiple books, Thomas Jefferson created a revolving 5-book stand for his study at Monticello so he could enjoy and pivot between multiple books at the same time.
That was in the 1800's and woodworkers still build off his design today.

I hope the weather cools off for you soon.