Living As All of Me

[NarcKiddo]

   I'm so happy she's doing well.

A bit of gentle advice follows because I have lost two dogs as an adult and I hope it might be helpful. But we are all different so please ignore and I will happily delete if you prefer.

It's good that you are parenting yourself through this, but I would gently suggest that you look to the future as possibilities. Some people find they can't tolerate a day without another dog, others find they can't make space for another while the loss of their beloved is so raw. I have found for myself that I miss both of my dogs as individuals much more than pets and have found myself unable to get another right now. Whereas when I had guinea pigs I was quicker to get more. You won't know until it happens how all of that will land with you. A fixed idea of what you will do may seem comforting now, like you have a framework to cling to. If that's what parts of you need for now, then that's what they need. I'd just be careful about making firm promises to parts of you that All of You might not feel comfortable with.

[HannahOne]

NarcKiddo, I really appreciate your perspective, thank you for sharing. There's wisdom in what you're saying. I think you're right, parts of me are clinging to a plan to try to reduce the coming blow. :/ I really don't know how to do this. Of course, this being feel pain I know how to do it I just don't want to.

right now little friend is curled up in my bed, not wearing the cone of shame. Soon I'll put her in the bathroom for the night so she can't leap up and down off of furniture while we're sleeping and she'll have to wear the cone. She has a plush bed in there but she's so cozy I am delaying moving her over.

It's almost impossible to imagine her not being here. She's such a big part of my life.