Starting my journal

[HannahOne]

Holidayay, I'm so sorry for all you went through and for the betrayal.

The warning by the volunteer makes sense. It IS common for people to react like that. And also, it's horrible that they do. It's horrible to be betrayed, it's wrong. I'm sorry. You did the right thing to speak when you felt called to do so. You had strength in the face of fear, shame, and reliving the pain.

It makes sense that after such a betrayal you would feel a loss of vitality. It's deadening to be betrayed. And how to live with that. How to live alongside the pain and accept it while also grieving the self you were before. There's no answers that make the pain resolved. Just figuring out how to want, hope, wish again when the most important wish did not come true.