Healing or Holding On?

[Dark.art.girl]

WOWOWOWOWOWOW!!!!
This has been a really dark four days. I've fully allowed the past to infiltrate my relationship.

Serious issues have arose regarding my intimacy problems and I have no choice but to address it aggressively with treatment. My thoughts have gone completely morbid. I've reached out for help, don't worry. But man, did I really think I could go on so long without seeking help?

I'm sending the letter to my mother, I think. I just want to make 100% sure it's what I want my last words to be. To her. I don't mean "last words", I mean last words to her because I haven't and will not speak to her ever again lol. I'm not sure why, but I feel I'll get some closure from it. Somehow I'll feel a little touch of peace.

I hope you all are doing well. My activity on here is so sporadic.
Enjoy your weekend, friends. Just had to rant real quick, I guess!