Hello, looking for others

[Farwalker]

Hello. Im just gonna get right into why I'm here.

Im 27 and I've been in therapy for a few years now which has let me say I have cptsd from physical abuse as a kid from my parents. I've accepted that.

But recently my mom had a cancer scare and decided it was time to try and cleanse her guilt. She reminded me of an "uncle" that she used to call a pedo and when I was sub 10 she told me I couldn't leave my 2 younger siblings alone with him when we were sent to spend the night at his place (I remember all of this). What was new information was when she called saying she just found out my younger sister was SA by him and asked if it happened to me too. I just cried and said "idk." Tbh this is something I've been questioning for years not cuz of explicit memories but cuz of the situation I was in. I really don't remember much before like 10 years old.

This just has me feeling so lost and confused. I feel like I need answers to determine just how mad and sad and emotional I should be.

I think im writing to you guys now to ask if anyone else has dealt with this kind of uncertainty and if so how you moved through it. I moved away from my family at 18 but somehow they're still affecting my whole life that I've worked so hard to build.