What Do Your EF's Feel Like? Part 2

[woodsgnome]

a_bunny asked:  "Does any of this sound familiar?"

Unfortunately, all of it does. The encouraging part is recognizing the ef's when they happen and/or shortly thereafter. The discouraging side includes the repetitive nature of the reactions/symptoms, not to mention the unexpected triggers that might emerge on short notice. In my case, it makes me want to hide and never come out again  .

[Blueberry]

Recently I managed to recognise an EF before it really hit, so I was able to head it off. My T said that would come sometime. That's encouraging too.

if you like, woodsgnome

[Boatsetsailrose]

I agree woodsgnome.
And the repetitive nature of it doesn't even make it easier ...it feels like the first time all over again. Then when I'm out of it (can take days to stabilise) i feel like it will never happen again .....until the next time that is ..
Yes blueberry being able to manage before full blow is very encouraging

[Blueberry]

I think I'm back in a different EF though. I don't even really want to take the steps to get out of it. Oh well. Wanting to will come again.

[Boatsetsailrose]

Blueberry i can understand that ...being our own nurse when we are the patient makes no sense at all...
Small steps to.self.love

[Blueberry]

Thanks for validation and encouragement Boatssetsail 

[Marianne]

I feel a little frightened talking about this.

[Marianne]

Never mind. 15151515

[MarkTheRobot]

For me it's the feeling that I am about to come under attack or I am in danger. That I have to protect myself and/or justify my actions to infinity. My back feels super bruised and it's hard to move my body. My heart rate jumps. My breathing gets ragged like I'm jogging. I break into a cold sweat. Tears stream from my eyes but I'm not physically sobbing. I feel terrified that I am going to be abandoned but I also have a primal need to distance myself from everyone. My outer critic is on hyperdrive. My inner critic is vicious.
I am so happy that I see these EF for what they actually are. I'm not crazy, I'm traumatized.