Physical symptoms of c-ptsd?

[helliepig]

Hi Chessa
Just wanted to say I have had symptoms like this Have woken up about to die and feeling literally like I was. Sudden terrifying jolts in my chest or unable to breathe and hanging on to survive. Or wakening up upright but part of my body numb or unable to speak,
As those nightmare and sleep terrors have been processed I have seen the terror that drives them and they have slowed down.
As body memories of my abuse surfaced I have had, at different times,palpitations (echo and ECG normal, tinnitus and vertigo one ear (MRI normal). feeling full up and unable to eat  I lost so much weight (endoscopy ulcer) anal pain and aching (normal sigmoidoscopy)abdo cramps and periods of being unable to breathe, intense migraines with screeching pain in my head and once, double vision, terrific  back and neck pains, and tingling in my arms,

As the body fragments have cleared all this stuff has stopped. It was all very sinister because it was imbued with the emotional terror underneath and it made me intensely afraid of being dead or crazy - it was my mind trying to resist the horrors my body had endured and had stored in its tissues

I'm basically a very fit and normal, down to earth person. I have nothing wrong with me, I do Insanity and am fit as a fiddle. I have no medical problems and take no medications. If this hadn't happened to me ( Or before I knew I was dissociative and abused ) I wouldn't have believed it. I searched for hours on the internet to find accounts of trauma doing this. Pseudoseizures and non ulcer dyspepsia was about all I could find.
Trauma and dissociated body memories can do some very very weird *. All you have to do is feel it and go through it and it becomes processed and it goes away.


I don't know if this helps you but I wanted to share, Maybe read The Body Remembers of Pete Levines book about the tiger.- how to shake off body trauma.

I hope realising you're not alone helps xx

[Chessa]

Helliepig,
  Thank you!  I never really considered some of my physical challenges to my trauma.  I will do some research.  I really appreciate your post and for sharing.

[helliepig]

You're very welcome. I hope you find what you're looking for.

I'm sad so many people suffer symptoms from trauma physically and never manage to find the link or push a way through it.
.....So many people fighting this internal assailant they can't ever seem to outwit and having to believe they are disabled or ill in some way. It's a price none of us should have to pay for what was never our fault in the first place.

[Blueberry]

It's a price none of us should have to pay for what was never our fault in the first place.

Agree whole-heartedly.