Trying to explain

[Mussymel]

Stop
The pain
The shame, never ending, overwhelming shame
Feeling worthless
A failure
Wrong
A broken shell with rotting insides
Self doubt, self hate, self harm
Ugly, bitter, twisted
Bad
Rotten to the core
A pain, a burden, a risk
A waste
Wearing a mask to hide the truth
Wanting to please
Wanting to trust
Wanting to love
Not knowing how
The never ending turn and return
No escape
No reprieve
No hope
Stop

[Hope67]

Hi Mussymel,
A powerful poem.  You explained a lot within it.    to you, if that's ok.
Hope 

[Deep Blue]

Mussymel,
This poem reminds me of all the gaslighting my abusers did.  It is powerful and sad to me.