Fear of *

[Marianne]

I have suffered abuse, but not religious abuse. I did turn to religion in my tries to recover of the abuse. Don't get me wrong, I believe in God. But some of the ideas, like eternal torture in *, are so horribly scary if they genuinely sink in, that I think this caused my ptsd to turn way worse. I had delusions where I thought I was so evil that I would be forever tortured in the most gruelsome ways, for even the tiniest sins. Or even for normal things, like eating or drinking. I was also scared not to be able to protect my child, fearing he too would suffer such a fate. I thought it was the end times and I was left behind.

Does anybody else have trauma from certain "normal" or common religious ideas, like the stories about * and end times? How did you recover?