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[SeeMe]

I was diagnosed with PTSD 11 years ago and recently diagnosed with CPTSD.

Trauma during childhood, loss of younger brother, in abusive marriage for 25 years which ended in DH committing suicide in front of me, loss of older brother, diagnosed with Stage 3 Malignant Melanoma, currently in long term relationship with borderline narc. 

In therapy, which has not seemed to help.  Looking for help to self soothe
and ways to cope with constant anxiety and hypervigilance.

I have suffered with severe anxiety as long as I can remember and I feel like I am completely disassociating from Everyone and everything. 

[Kizzie]

Hi and a warm welcome to OOTS SeeMe   

I am so sorry for all that you are dealing with    Many of us find that present day traumas (like being ill with cancer and being in a relationship with someone who may have NPD), layers on top of past trauma and it can overwhelm us.     Life becomes a matter of survival again, just like when we were kids and being abused. It's no wonder you are dissociating. 

Perhaps you could have a conversation with your T about this and strategize about ways of reducing stress re being ill & dealing with a potentially NPD partner?  It often helps me when I just tackle one or two things at a time.

Being here may help as well - connecting with others who get what you're going through can be such a relief so keep on posting 

[sigiriuk]

Welcome
You are amongst friends, who like you, felt completely alone during the bad times.
Now we are together, as much as we can manage.....
Slim

[Kizzie]