hello out there

[WideSargassoSea]

Hello. I have some trouble making sense of things sometimes so please excuse this post if it seems a bit odd or if Im repeating myself. So what brings me here?  Well, I had a bad upbringing from my family, and loads of emotional neglect, as well as an early life threatening incident due to said neglect. I have a lot of social anxiety and other lesser anxieties, that get in the way of things I'd like to do. At the moment I am dealing with depression-I think im processing a lot of past things for the first time and its a hard road.

Tried a bunch of therapists, some helped a little, most didnt. Have found most help through various books, and notably that Pete Walker one mentioned on this site. I dont have a support network, but am hoping to build one gradually, as I am also trying to deal with a lot of everyday practical tasks that have become quite big and so involve quite a bit of energy from me.

I like music, films, I care about people a lot (too much?), and have other interests too.  I think im gradually broadening out my inner coping mechanisms, being more kind to myself and so on, and also broadening out my future hopes and things to what works for me and what I really feel, whereas in the past I was always doing it for what I thought others expected of me.

Just the other day I pushed myself (far) too hard doing something and today I am struggling with the outcome of it. Hence a perhaps repeated post due to fatigue.

[Three Roses]

Hello and welcome, WideSargassoSea! I'm glad you found this forum. I have virtually no one to talk to about my cptsd symptoms irl and this forum has given me a place I feel understood. The feeling of belonging is not diminished by the fact this is "just" an online community. I hope you have the same experience of being welcomed and understood! 

[Hope67]

Hi WideSargassoSea - I would also like to welcome you - and I hope you'll find this forum to be a place where you will find some support and also understanding.   I have found it very supportive. 
Wishing you the best and glad you found your way here.
Hope 

[Blueberry]

  Welcome WideSargassoSea! This place is a tremendous support for me. I hope for you too.

[WideSargassoSea]

Thanks everyone. Nice to be here. Had bit of a browse and it all looks promising. Very tired today but I hope to make use of some other areas soon.

[Hope67]

Hi again WideSargassoSea - I hope you feel less tired today. 
Hope