anger

[Blueberry]

Thank you finallyfree! I just love all those cheering, clapping emojis   

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Today just before I opened up my email I felt anger directed at FOO. I still said to myself: "no reading FOO emails rn if there are any" but feeling anger instead of fear - Progress!  

[Blueberry]

It's a long time since I wrote here, but today I felt so much anger towards FOO. It actually felt good to speak the anger in my head as if I was talking to FOO. A bit like a Recovery Letter but just in my head.

They're just messing me around as usual. When they get a response from me to some question where my response doesn't appeal to them or please them, or I have a request (e.g. please respond), they don't. Although beforehand there was this big show of 'Love' at the end of a letter or email and all that bogus stuff.

In my head, I was saying things like "I am sooo sick of this" and worse. Swearing too, but not only. Anger!