Letter to M

[rainydiary]

Hello M,

I miss having you in my life.  You often spoke of being a witness to my healing and growth.  I really needed that.

When I left you said I could stay in touch.  I did and shared some of my challenges.  We had a weird interaction and I haven't heard from you since.

I thought that maybe you felt awkward about that interaction.  So I tried to reconnect and you haven't responded. 

I don't need you in my life the way I did before.  But the loss of you completely is heavy.  I have a gap that I am trying to fill.  I am trying to show myself the care you showed.

I wish I understood what happened.  But I don't think I'll ever know.  I hope that you are ok and I hope you know I miss you.