I’m here and I guess that’s what counts

[Invisiblewoman]

My story spans a lifetime and is complex.

I struggle daily with anxiety and just don't have any other label that defines me.

I was diagnosed with ptsd at one point. I have had other diagnoses that never stuck.

I'm here. And I am trying to build a life worth living.

[Hope67]

Hi Invisiblewoman,
Welcome.  I'm glad you've found your way here. 
Hope 

[dollyvee]

Hi invisiblewoman,

Welcome to the forum   

I hope you're able to explore more about what might be going on for you and find what you're looking for here.

Sending you support,
dolly

[NarcKiddo]

Welcome.

I wish you well on your journey towards healing.

I don't have any formal diagnosis of anything related to mental health, nor do I want one. My therapist has confirmed I had an abusive childhood and display trauma reactions. I very strongly identify with the symptoms of C-PTSD and am pretty sure that plays a major part in my struggles. As such, I find this site and the people on this forum to be a wonderful source of support and help. I hope you do, too.

[Papa Coco]

Invisiblewoman,

Welcome to the community.

I hope you find that here, on this forum, in this community, you won't feel so invisible. With or without the right diagnosis, we seem to understand each other here. Most of us deal with feeling invisible, or unlovable to the world. We isolate and struggle to look in mirrors or at photos of ourselves.  But here, we see each other. We care about each other. We aren't invisible to each other here in the forum.

I'm very glad that you found this forum. It's been a godsend for me, and I sincerely hope it is one for you as well.

[someonewholovesthemselves]

Hi invisiblewoman
Welcome to the forum
I loved when you said, "I want to build a life worth living"
You will
Sending love your way

[Kizzie]

HI and a warm welcome to OOTS Invisiblewoman.  I used to feel invisible, partly because of my family and partly because I wanted it that way so nothing more happened to me. 

Many of us have been misdiagnosed and that's because CPTSD is relatively new and not fully out there in medical and mental health circles. If you felt a bit relieved when you read about CPTSD it's likely because this is the diagnosis that does fit you.

In any event, as you read posts around the forum if it makes sense to you then you're in the right place. 

[Invisiblewoman]

My reason for being here is because I struggle with anxiety that I think is related to my childhood trauma.

I am no contact with my FOO because of verbal and emotional abuse. Certain members have been physically abusive and sexually abusive.

My living situation is not ideal and I have had to deal with a strange situation that was caused by a previous superintendent, due to how he smeared me to his friends.

I don't like talking about some of the neighbours but some of them are AWFUL.  One, who I thankfully don't see anymore, actually tried to accuse me of breaking into her car. What triggered her was I walked past her car with my cat on a leash. I'm about the last person who would steal something. My neighbour laid their hands on me and really tried to provoke the situation.

No one takes them seriously but I don't think some of my neighbours are rational people and are actually dangerous.

I am not exactly safe living here- that is the bottom line. I am trying to keep myself safe but feel there may come a time I'll need to leave. I'm trying not to catastrophize.