Hi, I'm new here.

[puppyma]

Hi everyone. I have been working through my trauma for the last 6 years. Probably longer, but consciously 6. I am the product of neglect and emotional abuse. I have decided my mom is a narcissist and only cared about herself and anyone that would kiss her butt. All of my siblings are her favorite and I have been left alone. I have tried for years to prove myself to her and my family, but to no avail. I am also an Exmo (ex-mormon). I have been deconditioning myself for the last 3 years. I have a lot of triggers and have had a hard time with my relationship with my husband. He has been helping me as much as possible, but he knows that he is to close to the situation to be un-biased in a lot of my issues. I am currently looking for a therapist to hopefully have someone to talk to on a regular basis.

[Chart]

Hello Puppyma, welcome.

[Beijaflor57]

Welcome, Puppyma! 

Glad you're here. I've also endured neglect and emotional abuse and have been the primary scapegoat in my family since I was a child. Not an ex-Mormon, but the product of a very strict, fundamentalist Christian home and a cult-like church in my youth. Which always confused me as to how those who call themselves Christians can be so cruel and abusive. So I can relate a bit to what you're going through.

I hope you find this forum to be helpful in your healing journey. 

[Papa Coco]

Puppyma,

Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry to hear of all you've been through, but happy that you found this forum as a place to find support with others who have had similar experiences and offer friendship and comradery as we all progress through the healing from C-PTSD together.

I hope you are able to find a good trauma-wise therapist soon. A good compassionate therapist can really help.

I am a recovering Catholic. Being in their control from age 0 to 20 was the most horrible thing I've ever lived through. The lasting traumas that they put onto me have lasted for decades since. I can share that I got some helpful healing from a person who I met a few years ago by Googling about religious trauma. I found Andrew Jasko who has got some amazing blog articles and has done a number of podcast interviews on the topic of healing from religious trauma. His website is https://lifeafterdogma.org/. I only share this because the information in his blogs and his interviews was a breath of fresh air for me, and I just wanted to share that.

In any case, I am glad you found this supportive forum. The people here are pretty wise, very compassionate, and they don't need us to explain ourselves to them. They are birds of a feather.

As social creatures, we humans find strength when we rely on each other for support. To put it in a phrase, we're stronger together. This forum gives me a lot of strength. I hope it does that for you too.

Welcome.

[Kizzie]

Hi and a warm welcome to OOTS Puppyma.    

[NarcKiddo]

Hello, and welcome.

[puppyma]

Thank you for the welcomes. It is so nice to have connections with people who understand. I feel so alone sometimes. Especially when things are hard at home. Both my husband and daughter are autistic and sometimes I get overwhelmed because I have to be careful of what I do so I don't trigger them or I am trying to help them through their issues. Sometimes I feel like I get put on the back burner. I know I do this and feel this because of my trauma. It is just hard some days.

[Little2Nothing]

Welcome to the forum!!