starting a journal

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Giving this a try. 
Fully expressing my thoughts in a safe place seems to help. 

Taking the first question suggested...
. My greatest fear as a child was...

My greatest fear as a child (teenager) was that the people around me in a group, a crowd, would at any moment turn on me.  With slander, threats, hatred, spitting, shoving, grabbing, etc. 
Then not tell me why they were doing it.  Typical excuse was "how should I know".  Which to me is an admission that you have no reason to believe your hateful accusations.
 

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. My childhood home felt...

My childhood home felt safe.  Away from the threats, the hatred, the slander.  I had no neighbors, just family and the mountains all around.

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4. When my mother was angry, she would...

Yell and send me to my room, or outside if the weather was good.  There I would read, or work on a hobby or take a walk in the woods.

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5. . My father made me feel...

My father was aloof, distant, stoic...unless we were doing something together.
Would let me tag along when he went fishing, trapping and sometimes when hunting.   Use to fall trees and cut up the wood for firewood with him.  We would cut trees for people for no cost as long as we got most of the wood.  Would skin and prepare his hides from trapping to sell.