Hi all..new here..

[Honeykeeper019]

My mother in law found this site for me today. My doctor diagnosed me with CPSTD, OCD, Post traumatic head trauma, anxiety, stress and depression...finally a diagnosis ..oh happy day...I was a victim of child abuse from as early as I could remember then when I married young to someone I thought was safe he too began abusing me and again I became a victim..I found out 4 children and 16 years later after divorcing him that he also fondled my oldest daughter and had beaten my oldest son while I was gone to work. In my childhood my mother was a prostitute hooked on drugs and alcohol. She was married 7 times to all abusive men. I knew alot of things that had happened to me and my brothers but more I found out in my 20's after reoccurring nightmares. My doctor asked me if I wanted to undergo hypnosis to find out more but I know enough and am afraid of knowing more. I don't see counselors but have in the past at different times, I don't trust anyone and am very glad that this site is anonymous or I probably wouldn't have joined at all... hoping to learn more and share with anyone here..thank you for this site

[mourningdove]

Welcome, Honeykeeper019! 

Glad that you found  your way here!

[Dee]

I'm glad you are here and I hope you feel you belong, as I do.  It sounds like you have some support but here maybe you can identify as well.

Dee

[Three Roses]

Hello, honeykeeper! So glad that you are here with us. 

Trust your instincts, you'll know if and when it's ever time to remember. We carry the truth within us - it's never lost. You will have yours.

Again, welcome and thanks for joining and posting.

[Kizzie]

Hi Honeykeeper and a warm welcome to OOTS    It can be difficult to be diagnosed as many of us know, and yet at the same time it can be a relief once we finally know what's going on inside, that it isn't that we are crazy or defective but have a disorder that many others do unfortunately. 

That's really interesting that you M-I-L found this site for you.  Is she someone you can count on for support? 

[prairiewind]

Welcome Honeykeeper. Glad to hear you are finding resources and help after all you've been thru.