New here and glad to be here.

[Unfoldinggrace]

Greetings from a newbie.  So glad to have found my way to this community. My CPTSD started in childhood as daily events. It continued throughout my life in the relationships and friendships I chose. I felt afraid of myself and that there was something terribly wrong with me. If I could just act right and be a helper to everyone else and be perfect maybe I would be okay.
  Now at the ripe Young age of 70 I realize how codependent I am and how I am not to blame and I did nothing wrong other than to ignore myself and my own needs.. I am a victim of narcissistic personality disordered parents and the relationships that followed.
   Today I have a thriving membership in my local CODA group, intensively working through the steps with a wonderful and wise sponsor. I have removed myself from the dysfunctional relationships that have caused me a lifetime of pain.  I feel like I have come home and begun a whole new life! Maybe we can share our journeys and grow together. I look forward to it.

[radical]

Great to have you join us Unfoldinggrace

I'm looking forward to you sharing your journey.  It must have taken so much courage to leave behind a lifetime of dysfunctional relationships.  It's inspiring to hear that you feel a weight lifted and the beginning of a whole new life.

I'm still feeling a bit battered from what I've left behind and a gaping whole where my life (such as it was) used to be.  But there is a real liberation in finding that strength and being prepared to leave behind harmful relationships when that is most of all you have known.

[AncientSoul]

Hi Unfoldinggrace:

Welcome. You sure hit the jackpot with finding this site. That's my opinion, as the people here have been through so much and they listen and understand. Plus the resources here show us so many things and help in making sense of the whole mess. Yes, in my own words, its a mess. Being here has helped me clean up and understand why these things happened to me. I don't know what I would have done without being able to express myself here. But these people care.

There is no time limit to heal. And here I felt control coming back to me with being able to tell what happened. Then hearing about what happened to others.

So glad you're here.

AncientSoul

[Three Roses]

Welcome, unfolding grace! Thanks for joining