Relationship and cptsd

[Annarae12]

I have been with my gf for a little over a year now. Ive been really struggling with extreme depersonalization/derealization for a year now and recently realized i have cptsd. I am struggling with my relationship, i find that i am always someone that needs a relationship because i long to be loved and to feel real love. I am so confused on my feelings though, its so hard for me to connect with my gf or get close to her because 2 years ago or so i got my heart completely broken by a girl i loved/love so dearly. Everytime i attempt to get close to my current gf i dissoiate and have emotional flashbacks about my painful ex or past pain. I do love my gf but sometimes i am unsure i can heal or really find myself while being with her. I feel so stuck sometimes since i live with her and have no money or drivers license. I have no idea what to do everything just seems so confusing and hard.

[Dee]

How does your GF treat you?  You don't have to be stuck with anyone.  We can brainstorm ideas to get you on your own two feet if you like.

[Annarae12]

My girlfriend and I recently broke up now. Things have not been very good at all since I was kicked out off our apartment and I dont really have anywhere to live now. My depersonalization is getting worse and I am not sure what I am going to do.

[Dee]

Anna,  What resources do you have in your community?  Also do you have friends that can help you out while you figure things out?