Having graphic nightmares csa *trigger warning*

[dressymessy]

I just want to preface this by saying I don't remembe if I was abused sexually and I'm stil just confused in general but I've been getting flashbacks and have a registered sex offender in my family no one cared was around children and who knows who else.  Just a confused vent. Thanks for being here everyone.


Ive been having some terrifying nightmares lately.  This last one was really sexually violent regrading family members and involved my sister getting raped.  I'm not sure if I should ask her if she remembers anything or not as she is generally very fragile.  I just don't know what to do in regards to this right now.  It seems like any time I forget what did or could have happened my body finds a way to bring it right back up.  My sister is the only one I have contact with in my family. I considered opening contact again with others but I think it's for the best I don't and Im kinda unsure about keeping the relationship with my sister too.  I just feel drained and I'm angry that I had to wake up frightened. 

[Dee]

Do you have a therapist?  You have some ligament concerns here and I feel you would benefit from exploring this with a therapist.  Unfortunately, when the box is opened the emotions can be overwhelming, especially when there is no foundation.  The same might be true for your sister.