Greetings from a New User

[ImaSurvivor]

Hello OOTS family,

I am a CPTSD survivor from sexual abuse from my older sister and brother when I was 5-10 years old, the traumatic effects of the divorce of my parents, and the beginning of divorce of my own marriage. 

I've been forced to stay silent about my childhood abuse for a vast majority of my life at a great cost. 

I am no longer willing to live a lie and protect the people who have done this to me.  I am currently in an inpatient group/individual treatment program, will start seeing a therapist who specializes in CPTSD once I complete my program, as well as seeking to rebuild my spiritual strength.

I am so glad that I am no longer alone and that I finally, ****FINALLY**** have a healthy way out of this.

I look forward to sharing my story with you all.  I am refusing to let CPTSD define who I am any more.  I'm learning to forgive.  I'm learning to be forgiven.  And I'm learning to love myself for the first time in a long time.

I am very glad to be here 

[woodsgnome]

ImaSurvivor: "I'm learning to love myself for the first time in a long time." Getting far enough to say that and not look back (except in explanation) is what this journey is all about, I feel. Along with the learning comes loads of un-learning and discarding all the inexplicable junk heaped on us.   

While it's more than disappointing to have gone through all it took to get close to a nurturing self-love, it's all new territory from now on. Welcome to this place, where you'll be free to learn and un-learn as much or as little as you wish.

[Kat]

Welcome!  Glad you found us!

[AphoticAtramentous]

Welcome to the forum, Survivor. Pleasure to meet you and I hope to hear more from you soon.

[ImaSurvivor]

Thank you all so much for your kind, warm welcome!

I'm looking forward to being an active member here

[ah]

Welcome 
And I agree with every word woodsgnome said.

[Blueberry]

Welcome Im a Survivor 

I am no longer willing to live a lie and protect the people who have done this to me.

Strong-sounding sentence! 

I'm glad you found us and hope to see you more around the boards.

[ImaSurvivor]

Thank you ah and Blueberry!