Therapist wants me to relive trauma - don't want to *tw*

[songbirdrosa]

So, conclusion to the tale here, I guess.

I've talked to the service I'm going through, and they're going to change me to a new T who is more experienced in childhood trauma, and who can also offer EMDR if I want it. She's on leave until the end of the month, but I'm more than willing to wait if it means I'll be seeing someone better suited to my situation.

I also found out in the course of transferring that the problematic T had billed them for the session last week that I didn't go to, which to me more than demonstrates her true motivations in regards to my treatment. Especially as I gave her two days notice that I wouldn't be there.

Hopefully this new T works out well. I know I definitely need the support right now.

[Mussymel]

I'm glad you are changing and I hope this works out better for you. As we all know it is a very important relationship with your T and since interpersonal relationships are a big part of our problems we need someone who we can trust with all of that. I wish you the very best with it.

[Elphanigh]

Songbirdrosa, I am so glad you are being switched to a new T. It I should wonderful that you have taken action to get someone that is going to be more able to help you heal 

[bogan]

You need to do what works for you. I had emdr and it changed my life, and then I did write my story, It took 3 months and it wrecked me, lots of tears but it was so worth doing, it is now a story, every now and then I still add to it, my T will never read it, only me. it worked for me, but it was one of the hardest things I've ever done and I wouldn,t recommend it for everyone.

[sanmagic7]

songbird, very glad you found someone more informed in trauma and who might actually help instead of encourage more hurt for you.  best to you, always.    big hug.

[salto]

Stabilization and safety first! That's the most important step in therapy. A good enough therapist will never push your limits more than you can handle!

Glad you had the courage to change t!