Thank you everyone for sending me those kind words

August 18 ~
My therapist appointment on Friday went really well. We came up with an extremely helpful coping plan for anytime I'm having an emotion or EF that I don't understand. I've tried it a few times and so far it's working, if anyone wants to try it here are the steps:
1. How do I feel?
2. Why do I think I feel this way?
3. Validation. It's okay to feel this way. I'm allowed to feel this way.
4. What are some positive affirmations I can tell myself?
5. What could I do to move myself into a comfortable, positive, motivational place?
We also worked on separating myself from the past so I can be in the present. Those things in the past, memories, old coping skills, beliefs, worries, don't do anything for present or future me. I need to learn to leave them behind. I changed some things about my routine now that I did when I was younger, those coping skills helped me feel safe then but now they make me think I'm still unsafe, and so far it's working. I've been sleeping really well! So far this weekend I've felt the most present than over the whole summer. I've made an effort to go outside to events and places that I've wanted to visit since moving. I think making myself stop my isolating tendencies has really helped with my mental stability. School starts in a week, and I'm really excited to meet new people. I hope I'm on a steady path upwards to recovery. I think I fell in enough pits for now. I want to live my life in the present instead of looking to the past hoping to find answers that will never be there.