I'm tired of surviving.

[bhupendra]

I don't know if this is a right place to share this. I don't know if i can even put this in words.
I just wish I'd stop going through this one day.

I forgive you and what you did to me.
Even if my heart couldn't agree with it I'd still like to have faith in life, believe that there are good women in this world. It's not your fault.  I know I'd have to live with this all my life. I know even if there'd be other adults in my life who care about me as I care about them, I'd never be able to fully reciprocate their affection even if I want to. And that is okay.
I forgive you.

[Sceal]

I'm sorry to hear you're struggling.
It sounds like a big thing you're trying to overcome. I hope that you will find people in your life that can give you care, support and love.