Intro

[Kage]

I am so glad I found this website. Always felt so alone and disconnected from the rest of "people".
Never really fit in.
Reading some articles it's so relieving to see others that feel the same way I do.
Like the planet you were carrying just kind of dropped off your shoulders.

Diagnosis c-ptsd and anxiety issues.
From a friend who used their GI bill to be a phycologist/something or other.
Panic attack happened and thankfully they had been working in crisis care and knew what to do.
Guess that was just the lovely little tip of the iceberg though.
Like emotional flashbacks! Just discovered those to.

Absolutely.

Hate.

it.


Just when things in life start to level out this whole thing pops up.

Long term childhood abuse. What a nightmare.
Physically, emotionally, and neglect.
Don't like to talk about it.

Guess this whole thing makes me nervous and suspicious.
But I am told that is part of the problem.

So. weird mix there. Happy to see you guys, randomly suspicious of you guys. Go figure.
But hi.

[Kizzie]

  Welcome Kage!

Happy to see you guys, randomly suspicious of you guys.

Yup, that about says it for most of us when we arrive here     Relief and trepidation all rolled into one. And that's OK. The suspicious part of us is there for good reason, it's one of the things that helped us to survive. 

Anyway, glad you found your way here and I hope OOTS will be helpful in your recovery and healing.   

[Not Alone]

Kage,
Welcome to OOTS. I am fairly new to this site too. Haven't really posted anything vulnerable yet, but even my initial hello and responses to people feel vulnerable! Understand. It is helpful to hear from people who live with some of the same struggles. Glad you joined.

[Three Roses]

This made me chuckle;

randomly suspicious of you guys. Go figure.

Go figure, indeed!

But if you think about it, it's not really random at all. Suspicion of others is just one of the things our backgrounds have left us with. Some days, for me anyway, it's off the charts; while other days I feel perfectly able to see a person as just a person, and not someone else who could be carrying a desire to hurt me.

You make perfect sense. I'm glad you're here.

[Blueberry]

welcome to the forum Kage 

[beingme]

Hi Kage, I am new too. yes I understand the mistrust, if some one is kind to me, I literally ball my eyes out and don't know how to respond.

Find your own time to tell your story. Read all the other intro stories, I found that helped me connect

Peace.