Downsizing Worklife

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movementforthebetter

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Downsizing Worklife
« on: February 14, 2019, 05:24:28 AM »
I'm going in tomorrow to get a temp job. I don't want to go broke while not working, but in my heart I know I'm not ready to work yet. I just don't have much choice, and my SO is leaning on me hard to return to work.

I'm looking for the unicorn job that won't stress me out and won't have office politics. I don't know if I will ever find that. So I'll temp for minimum for as long as I can stand it.

Nearly everything about work environments trigger me, either with sleep disturbances and anxiety, or all the way to dissociation and crying spells. The whole experience is too much for me to process day-in, day-out. No one on the outside sees it that way, though.

Tomorrow I will have to tell the recruiter that I don't want a job that suits my résumé, without saying why. That scares me. Other people's unending and unjustified expectations scare me.

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Re: Downsizing Worklife
« Reply #1 on: February 14, 2019, 01:38:51 PM »
I always liked temping. You can do something until it isn't working for you anymore, whether that's a week, a month or a day. I kind of felt the office politics (they were in every job, some worse, some better) didn't have anything to do with me. Good luck with your search!
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Re: Downsizing Worklife
« Reply #2 on: February 14, 2019, 02:48:01 PM »
I'm sorry, movementforthebetter! I know all about feeling pushed back into the workplace when I'm not ready. It's not fun. Though sometimes it has gone better than I thought. I never manage full-time. Is part-time or even very part-time an option for you? That way there's more time for processing on whatever old memories etc come up or for dealing with EFs.

I really get this:
Tomorrow I will have to tell the recruiter that I don't want a job that suits my résumé, without saying why. That scares me. Other people's unending and unjustified expectations scare me.
it's very similar for me. So I'm sending good thoughts!  :hug:

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Re: Downsizing Worklife
« Reply #3 on: February 14, 2019, 06:04:54 PM »
I get it. I just got a part-time job three weeks ago. I also am under-employed. Even though my job is relatively stress-free, I still feel anxious before work, even if it is just a three-hour shift. Knowing that I have to be "on" is stressful. The recruiter doesn't need to know why you want the type of job you are looking for. If he/she presses you, say "For right now in my life, this is the type of job that will suit me." Keep your boundaries. I hope you find something that works for you. (If it is horrible, you can always quit.)

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Re: Downsizing Worklife
« Reply #4 on: February 14, 2019, 07:00:42 PM »
Thanks for the words of support, everyone. I'm in  mostly good sitution. I have full-time work that will probably be relatively stress free. It's a big warehouse, and I'm hoping I can mostly work independently. I don't think people usually pile too much on the temps.

It's minimum wage with a long commute, which I don't like. It may not be a good fit  for me down the line. But on the plus side, I get to commute with my SO. And it'll pay the bills, so I'll try it out.