Hi,
Wasnt sure where to post this, but given i havent done a proper introduction, thought i may add it here.
I am very confused.....my parents used me in many ways, and made me fulfil their needs. I worry about repeating that past via getting into a helping profession (therapist, charitable work), which is what allures me, but it may be because i have never and still dont know how to recognise what i want out of life, as i also became the caretaker for my siblings for many years - i.e. caretaking is all i know...perhaps
however, my grandparents were also involved in helping professions, and i saw good in that, and was around people who did good for humanity growing up, and having spent my working life so far in more traditional career, i have found it unsatisfying.
I may have just done too much self help reading / therapy, and have stopped myself from pursuing something i may really love, or it could be my history
i find it hard to split this all up now, and know what is me and my desires
any thoughts would be appreciated
thank you